Many moons, many thoughts

🥰 72 hrs 🥰

Months have turned into weeks, weeks into days and now just hrs left, but every hr seems like a week In itself! 

Not long now and we will finally be together.

My Sir has been enjoying edging me for the past I don't know how many days, still 3 more says to go. 🥵 Enough said about that!! 

Have some amazing new toys to play with, my first time with these things and I cannot wait I'm really looking forward to that.

Beauty salon tomorrow preparing my body for service to my specail Sir 🥰

Have beautiful new things to wear also just cannot wait think I'm about to burst 🥰🤭🥰

💜💜💜

🥰 5 day's 16 hrs 🥰

My heart doesn't know what to do, spend time in my throat or my tummy🥰🥰

I have yet again many reasons why my one is so special..

My life has become unrecognizable, from career, family, finding who I am again.. Theses very fragile things in my life were cared for with the upmost integrity and this was just a little friendship we had created nothing more nothing less.

This special one gave me enough confidence to walk into a national meeting to finally negotiate Many thing's but mainly for my health and welfare, and I killed it 😁😁😁

Our natural ability to be so free and open without judgement about so many things just grew and grew our little world of freedom together.

A unquie permission just to be with all our sillyness, joy lof a new freedom...mind you his dark humour is just what the doctor ordered!!

We both need it in our careers..

Made me even giggle to the point when i used a safe word because I was laughing so hard I just couldn't breathe 😂😂😂 

That's the best thing about us..it's our friendship and always wanting the up most care and consideration towards each other ALWAYS...xxxx

But in a nut shell

He did this...

👇😿 

So now with all that I am he has this...

🥰 9 days & 17 hrs..🥰

Then we have our time together the day of our Union. 

Could follow that with a thousand more words.

But I have no desire to share yet all the specail thing's that my Sir is.

All I will say is His presance in my life has has completely changed my world for so many reasons,

I have a happiness that's has been unknown to me.

I am getting healthier than I've been since contracting covid in 2019.

People look and me now and Wonder 🤔

The best statement to date was from my adult son..

"Mammy what new supplements or vitamins are you taking now"?

"You are  glowing".

Who ever needs more affirmation than that .

🥰💜🥰

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16 Days.

Transport booked,☑️ Hotel booked ☑️

Heart leaping☑️

Weak at the knees☑️

Pure excitement ☑️

Joy fills my soul ☑️

16 Days until we are finally together in each other's arms 🥰🥰 🥰

Do not love half lovers

Do not entertain half friends

Do not indulge in works of the half talented

Do not live half a life

and do not die a half death

If you choose silence, then be silent

When you speak, do so until you are finished

Do not silence yourself to say something

And do not speak to be silent

If you accept, then express it bluntly

Do not mask it

If you refuse then be clear about it

for an ambiguous refusal is but a weak acceptance

Do not accept half a solution

Do not believe half truths

Do not dream half a dream

Do not fantasize about half hopes

Half a drink will not quench your thirst

Half a meal will not satiate your hunger

Half the way will get you no where

Half an idea will bear you no results

Your other half is not the one you love

It is you in another time yet in the same space

It is you when you are not

Half a life is a life you didn't live,

A word you have not said

A smile you postponed

A love you have not had

A friendship you did not know

To reach and not arrive

Work and not work

Attend only to be absent

What makes you a stranger to them closest to you

and they strangers to you

The half is a mere moment of inability

but you are able for you are not half a being

You are a whole that exists to live a life

not half a life

~Gibran Khalil Gibran 

New beginnings...also a most powerful new moon today...make your wishes and sing them out as prayers, so the seas and stars hear your words. Write your wishes down...the written word is powerful that's why it's called spelling!😊 manifest big💜

So here it all begins...a bright shinny new path a beautiful new journey, going on a treasure hunt exploring all the hidden realms of my heart's desires.

Turning over old moss covered rocks and finding precious new beautiful things to explore and cherish.

With my guide by my side whispering words of comfort that I am finally seen.

My light is shinning so bright the flame has enveloped our spirts as she welds our union of peace exceptance and pure joy together.

The long long cold wait that was winter in our hearts and been given new hope of eternal life. Now we are spring it's self with new buds of hope pushing through the ground where once many people walked over and through before.

We walked through the darkness searching endlessly for the light we new could be found. Became so tired of the disappointments and weary of climbing up mountains only to loose our steps and fall again.

Then just then as decisions were being made to stop searching for this precious light and possibilities, just as we were to leave our dreams behind forever, the impossible happened! You reached out and you turned over the moss covered rocks and found a tiny jewel of hope. A very tiny precious one that most would not see and disregard it. But it was picked up so very carefully, a little bead of morning dew of potential was seen and carried out of the dark forest as she sung her truth to your heart of love and hope.

Now your little jewel is carried with the greatest of care and love. Now look how that jewel has began to grow and shine. All in the palm of your hands.

💜💜💜

“All through history, tears have [symbolically and actually] done three works: called the spirits to one’s side, repelled those who would bind the simple soul, and healed the injuries of poor human bargains.

There are times in a our lifetime when we cry and cry and cry, and even though we may have the succor and support of our loved ones, still we cry  Something in this crying keeps the predator away, keeps away unhealthy desire or gain that will ruin us. 

Tears are part of the mending of rips in the psyche where energy has leaked away. The matter is serious, but the worst does not occur—our light is not stolen—for tears make us conscious. There is no chance to go back to sleep when one is weeping. . . 

Sometimes a we say, “I am tired of crying, I want it to stop.” But it is our soul that is making tears, and they are our protection. So we must keep on till the time of need is over. Some marvel at all the water their bodies can produce when they weep. It will not last forever, only till the soul is done with its wise expression.” 

~ Sisters of the South Seas ,Riders of the North Wind. I am humble for my circle.💜💜💜

Just because 

you are soft

doesn’t mean

you are not a force. 

Honey and wildfire

are both

the color gold. 

So is dragon breath!!

🔥💫🔥

The doors to the world of the wild Self are few but precious. If you have a deep scar, that is a door, if you have an old, old story, that is a door. If you love the sky and the water so much you almost cannot bear it, that is a door. If you yearn for a deeper life, a full life, a sane life, that is a door. 

Many sweet blessings

💜🌻💜

"A circle of women may just be the most powerful force known to humanity. 

If you have one, embrace it. 

If you need one, seek it. 

If you find one, for the love of all that is good and holy, dive in. 

Hold on. Love it up. Get Naked. Let them see you. Let them hold you. Let your reluctant tears fall. Let yourself rise fierce and love gentle. 

You will be changed. The very fabric of your being will be altered by this, if you allow it.

Please, please allow it."

Sweet blessings 💜

Can you feel it....

Can you?

As I walk on the grass

I feel the earth

Stirring, purring A new tremble of breath....

A shudder beneath my feet I feel of new life and hope.

The yellow Daffodils the purple Crocus white Snow drops 

Ah the Lily I can feel her orange magic

Seemingly

Spontaneously

pushing through out of there darkness of our mother

our Earth

ready to show and shine in their true beauty of renewal 

so much magic I see and feel today 

I stop and breath deep 

taking in all the scents of new hope new life and renewed days of sunshine.

Everything spiralling

Everything Dancing

To the songs of Spring

blessed be 💜💜💜