Maiden
A word so infrequently used, it has been relegated to fairy tales and dreams of another, untamed time.
Yet, it was I...timid, wearing an unlined mask of perfect skin, I tried to boldly take such large steps into a life, planned, but unknown.
I was joined in the journey and led in it by one not too dissimilar. Filled with hopes of a life together, we embarked.
Firsts of many kinds, sensual pleasures, surely.
And yet, an aching, a longing for that which I was unable to bring to Him, secretly filled the corners of our bedroom.
A ferocity He longed to express, a place for me to be safe from all I longed to control, could have belonged to that Maiden.
If only she could have learned to trust the Dragon.
Mother
Babies filled my arms, my days, my heart.
A heart that I thought I was limitless, crowded out the very Bringer of joy, adventure, and peace.
I ran after all those things, putting everyone and everything ahead of Him.
And still, He waited, often without the fire that filled Him, for a glimpse of what could be,
If only I could have flown with Him, to soar above the demands of life and finally believe.
Crone
The maiden’s dreams all accomplished,
The babies grown,
The responsibilities to those who created me, fulfilled,
I stood alone, looking over the vast expanse of a kingdom thirty years in the making.
And I saw Him, swooping in to save what was always His.
To take, finally, all the control, all the pleasures, and all the joy they brought,
To lay them at my feet.
Reminding me that the story was not over,
But just beginning.
Rule 52: i will periodically examine my whole life and look for how it has changed as a result of my relationship to my Master. i will speak to my Master about those areas where there have been improvements and those areas where i feel uncomfortable, insecure, or unsure of what direction i should take, how i should behave, or how i can behave in a manner that is different than how i have been behaving in the past.
