I thought you would always be the one I could count on that would stand up for me when things got though.
I’d always believed you would fight for me because of how you felt about me.
Turns out, I was wrong.
While I know we’d had some rough times of late, our relationship had a lot of truly beautiful moments too..
Or had you forgotten those, too?
When I needed you most, when things were the hardest..you just turned your back on me.
I don’t think I’ve ever been so hurt in my life.
I just couldn’t believe the one person that I thought would always be there..wasn’t.
You just chose to walk away rather than fight for me, for us?
I ask myself a million questions trying to understand how you could do that..and honestly, I don’t know.
I may never know.
Maybe you didn’t feel as strongly about me as you claimed, maybe something changed..or maybe you just fed me some words to make me believe we were the real thing.
I don’t know. I’m just so hurt-I’m beyond pain, I’m numb.
I don’t know where to turn or what to think, I’m completely lost.
This wasn’t supposed to be how things were meant to turnout.
Part of me has always believed you were the one and that my search was over..
And now I’m just feeling dumb as you left me holding pieces of my broken heart..
But when everything came crashing down around me , you were nowhere to be found..
So, I did what I never thought I could do and stood up for myself..
I fought for me when I didn’t even think I had that strength in me.
Sometimes, your story doesn’t give you a choice and that’s exactly where you walked out on me..
So, I did whatever I had to do to survive.
It’s hard, I’m not going to lie -there’s so many days that I want to quit, but I’d rather be out here struggling by myself than depending on someone who walks out when things get hard.
I’m done with that.
I’m sure you have your reasons and what you told everyone else, but you never even bothered to explain it to me..
The one person you should have told first, you didn’t even think I was worth the effort.
I guess it’s better to find out now than many years down the road, but it still hurts all the same.
I know I’ll be fine eventually, because your cowardice reminded me of strength I didn’t know I had.
I’m strong enough, brave enough and courageous enough to pull through this with my head held high.
Maybe you walked out when the going got tough,
But the tough just made me get going.
I guess I should thank you for showing me the way back home to myself, but I don’t know that I’ll ever forgive you for what you did to me.
Doesn’t really matter, because I’m in a better place now.
Where you once left a girl to fend for herself without a thought to how she’d make it.
There now stands a strong woman..
With a heart of gold and a fiery spirit.
Some warriors are born..
This one was forged in the fire.
I was made for this..
Strong, beautiful and finally free.
The blood trail you left behind, gone.
The nightmares of you words.. gone..
The misery within your silence.. gone..
The fear of all we were, and what we were...
GONE
