I try not to do anything in haste.
I do not like becoming emotional.
But, it is hard for me not to notice certain cues... whether that be a pattern or action
Its like witnessing a car accident. You see the car about of collide with another, the pit of your stomach knots up and endorphins flood your system creating an erie anxiety. Thoughts of terror and sadness circle your consciousness... but the one thing you cannot do is look away.
I get the erie feeling and anxiety when I realize what's about to go down. Immediately I want to hit the kill switch and coast to a stop but I doubt my judgment and stay the course, ignoring the signs.
Then impact... fruition
Instead of slowing to a stop im thrown into the windshield thru no fault but my own.
In a daze, emotions happen... I hate being emotional. It is not until a bit later I can make a decision and act in reason. Reason - my tow truck, scooping up the mangled emotional mess and carrying it away. Attempting to leave no trace of a collision, but there's always some broken glass or tire marks left on the ground.
When it all could have been avoided if I heeded the road sign....
