They say absence makes the heart grow fonder... is that the same for diatance?
I am very much a submissive that needs touch. I do not consider myself needy or high maintenance, but real life interaction is something I feel I require. I find myself in a position where I am forming a seemingly strong connection to someone who's touch is 5000 miles away... the likes of it is unknown to me yet, somehow I miss it. Normally this would be a cause of anxiety and stress. I have interacted with dominants who were half that distance, much more accessable and not been able to form a meaningful connection. This one though... he is different. I dont see the distance as an obstacle but more of an opportunity...
This is not something I was looking for. I have not been actively looking for a dominant for a while now.
Do I know what I'm doing? No
Do I have any expectations? No
Am I making an effort? Yes
Is that effort being matched? Yes
Is there a degree of caution? Yes
Am I holding back due to that? No
I only know one way to be... that is authentic. Me at full strength is enough to send most people running in the other direction. I'm a lot. I know that. I refuse to water myself down to bring someone in close just to annihilate them with my potency. Luckily the dominant I speak of doesn't have a glass jaw.
He has been respectful and observant of appropriate boundaries. While I have been accommodating, I have not felt pressured to do anything im not comfortable with. He does not consiser me declining a request as a show of disrespect or defiance. I am able to speak to him freely without fear of him getting angry at my language or decorum. (Although, i am respectful, because thats who i am) Which seems like common sense because I do not belong to him... however, many dominants speak to submissives as a lower class. As if they are entitled to liberties only those who own us may have. When I am not in a dynamic with someone... i do not afford them the ability to speak to me or request/require things in the manner that MY dominant may. The bind between a submissive and dominant is sacred to me. A foundational principle I was taught when being introduced to the lifestyle. Only MY dominant is given access to my submission mind, body and soul. I am enjoying the time we spend talking. It's been a daily occurrence and even with the time difference the time and effort is being made to reach out to me each day. I'm am hopeful without setting myself up for disappointment. If that makes sense. What is distance anyway?
