AH Invictus(dom male){Umberlee }

Just my opinion…

I could be wrong

this makes me sad

6 months ago. October 14, 2023 at 2:49 PM

She did it today. She said she had been thinking of deleting her account. She had deactivated it. I sat on the phone as she pulled down her blogs. I was really hoping she would change her mind. She could be a voice- her blogs reached people- new subs talked to her, got advice- vetted people.

I am just vomiting up feelings. She scares me when she starts withdrawing. She's doing a great job of keeping everyone informed and I wonder if she includes him or if this another step in closing doors to him. Then, I wonder if she is climbing in her tower and closing herself away. She says she's trying to stay open to the people who care about her. She says she is conserving energy for the fight ahead and she is picking her battles.

We keep bringing them to her door. I am sorry we tried to save her in all the wrong ways. I am sorry that my friend is hurting in a time when we should be lifting her up. I am sorry to have to send her monkeys and not other happier things. I am sorry for raging out, because I just couldn't watch this without wanting to do something. I'm not going to catch a case of this. But people do more damage than they realize and sometimes it is omission and sometimes commission. The result is the same same either way. I wish they could see. I wish... I'm sorry

She is remarkable but some people don't see that.

I wish some people would see her like we do, porcelain and iron

They would see that she is the real deal; even when she didn't think she was.

Some Dom's would die to have half her devotion in a sub or to see that kind of investment in a dynamic. The last time she left lifestyle we didn't see her for 15 years. She closed doors and drifted away so quietly we didn't notice until she was completely gone. The emails slowed and then stopped and until someone asked have you heard from _____. No one had. None of us had a crisis- we were all pretty stable, for a little while no one was running to her to have their souls bandaged. We let her slip away when she really need us. I hope that's not what is happening now. This just makes me sad.

ChasingAmy(sub female) - Whoever she is, I’m thinking of her. This is all too familiar for me. If she needs a friend or confidant…I’m an email away. And she’s lucky to have a friend like you.

6 months ago

AH Invictus(dom male){Umberlee } - LOL some days I am sure she doesn't see it that way, but thank you.

6 months ago

ChasingAmy(sub female) - Sometimes, when we are retreating to the tower, we all ready have our backs turned to the ones following behind us, hands out reached to stop us. Let her get up into the top of the tower, lick her wounds and trust she will come to the window and look out. He there on the ground, looking up to her when she does.

6 months ago

AH Invictus(dom male){Umberlee } - She's still in touch with our circle. I just think there are people here she just can't see, and can't deal with and this way she can close the door. Maybe someday she will come back here. If not we are just going to have to crash her place to get brownies and cookies.

6 months ago

ChasingAmy(sub female) - Mmm brownies and cookies! But I can’t. I must resist!! She sounds lovely and kind. The kind of person you want in your corner.

6 months ago

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6 months ago

Notely - Something has pulled her away or the emotions got to them the kindness people are sensitive. They need time and space cut cord to things that are in the way. I know it can be hard in these times person can shy away they can be very loving but they need to pour the magic and energy back in to them people that support pour back also. Just be there for them be listening ear but let them re-cooperate. That they can stay in touch offline safest time stay in Touch Is discord or telegraph. 🫶

6 months ago

GiannaRay(sub female) - This forum either isn’t serving her needs or maybe isn’t healthy for her to stay here right now. Maybe both. Some peace because it can actually be harmful to themselves to stay, for whatever reasons. At least she’s still in touch with her circle and hasn’t withdrawn completely from any communication.

6 months ago

AH Invictus(dom male){Umberlee } - Well she had a relationship with a Dom here that did some serious damage. I’m sure that played a very large role in her decision. I think she just didn’t want to see anymore.

6 months ago

GiannaRay(sub female) - That would be understandable

6 months ago

AH Invictus(dom male){Umberlee } - I hate it and I can’t do anything about it but I can help her close the doors

6 months ago

GiannaRay(sub female) - All one can do is offer to be there if the person wants them to be. Sometimes people need to deal with things themselves.

6 months ago

AH Invictus(dom male){Umberlee } - Interestingly enough after multiple attempts to delete the account, none have worked. Apparently when you delete you have to finalize it by a link sent to your email. She never gets that email. So for now, she is disabled but not deleted, though she did delete her blog. Guess she can start over then.

6 months ago

HisSlave(sub female){No thank u} - We can always hope

6 months ago

Umberlee(sub female){Aiden} - Hey Yoko, ya did a bang up job of slamming that door. I forgive you though, if it meant anything to him he would have fought. And Goon, no man's comings and goings take me down forever. You of all people should know that. I was just not well enough to take on another fight like that. I know who owns what blame and I am making my peace with it all- 9 days and I am still standing.

5 months ago

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AH Invictus​(dom male){Umberlee }

Just my opinion…

this makes me sad

AH Invictus(dom male){Umberlee }