I was given this advice concerning a relationship. I wonder about this a great deal. Is it even possible to go back to the beginning?
when you have been in a relationship or dynamic, you have had the opportunity to get to know someone on a different level. This is should be a deeper connection and there is knowledge I have that I can’t unknow.
Going back to the beginning doesn’t include the heady feelings that come with the firsts. You don’t get to make the discoveries and find the surprises.
In my struggle with a recent illness, I lashed out at a person I hold dear.. I own that error and have apologised. While there are reasons it was beyond my control, it damaged the relationship just the same. I’m attempting to rebuild trust and am struggling with “back to the beginning”. It’s harder to be just her friend again. I am told to think of things in terms of things before we were lovers. It’s hard to avoid re-assuming the role of her Daddy and her Dom.
Friends after so much more, is hard. I know she is worth it and although I’m not sure where to go from here. I know that back to the beginning is not something I can do with ease.
