Intro: to this Xxy male

Hello all, it's been a while since I've been here, I've been patiently waiting for the return of Miss Raven, I gave her my pledge and commitment and still willingly waiting for her to return. I don't know how long I should wait but I'll give it a few more months, it makes me sad not having my lady to confide in and talk to you as a friend. She was truly a kind and loving mistress or is she like to be called Miss . I hope all my other friends here are still doing well and they use all stay healthy and wise my love Gracie

Oh how the tides shift so fast, being gender fluid is hard enough, this last week has been a roller coaster of emotions, first happy then sad, I've been feeling  so ashamed of myself, feeling inadequate , I know if my family and wife found out I would be disowned and abandoned... yet I feel so good when I accept her also.. as I've gotten older my feminine side has grown more relevant... the wife knows I battle with who I am  and supports me to a limit. She is also afraid of me wanting to fully transition and she made it clear she couldn't accept that. Why is everything so tough, why can't we all just be accepted and loved ❤️... sorry for ranting just been having a hard week!

Good morning my Friends, as I learn more about myself, I'm finding peace and love within myself, at 58 hiding my inner feeling, suppressed childhood memories, admitting and facing as a child I was molested and pressured giving sexual favors by a older teen which was never disclosed before now. It's give me a sense of freedom, removing a heavy burden and some of those dark clouds above ... I say this because I hope it helps others, i have been ashamed of myself for so long, and finding self acceptance and falling back in love with my inner child is amazing, I know I have a long way to go, but I do see the light on the path I am on !

Miss was very impressed with Edie. She was going to be used up in more ways than maybe even Edie thought. She was stripping away the duality and leaving only one present in the session. Edie. Next you will give Gracie the receptionist a BJ . She signaled Gracie over in front of me, now Edie lift her shirt and latch on and without hesitation I did what she said and as Gracie released, Edie was left to drink in the warm, wet, stickiness left by the receptionist on her face. “Mmmmmm” was all that came from Miss’s lips. And Edie could swear you could a ravenous growl come from deep within Miss. “What the hell is going on?” Edie kept saying over and over in her head but she went blank. This therapist was definitely making her become more of a woman indeed. The way the Miss looked at her as she rested on her knees. Edie went to rise from her knees when finished but the Miss used her fingertip to press her back down into the floor, “Oh no… you shall not rise just yet. I have a surprise for you.”That smirk on Miss’s face said something more wicked could be in store and as nervous as Edie was about it, she was also thrilled with it. Miss walked over to the receptionist and whispered something in her ear. Edie just watched. The way her eyes widened as Miss spoke to her. The deep voice that seemed to come from Miss and yet hushed just enough where nothing but murmuring could be heard. Miss grabbed her by the jaw and kissed her lips teasingly afterwards then pushed her back. She hurried to her feet and out the door after adjusting her skirt. Miss walked around Edie *clip clop* of heels on the floor as her footsteps were purposeful for her own wicked muse. *Clip clop* of heels that seemed to come closer behind Edie then back away. Edie found herself rubbing her hands on her thighs as she kneeled nervously watching the door. The receptionist hurried back in and knelt down beside the door and then a man walked in. Muscular build. Stocky. Football player type build. Wavy dark hair that went down to his shoulders, the sides pulled back in a hair tie. His eyes were a bluish-green. He walked in wearing his jeans and a white button up shirt with the first three buttons undone. Penny loafers on his feet and several leather bracelets around his wrists. He shut the door behind him and Edie watched Miss approach him and point to the floor. He too knelt down in front of her. Lowering his head. Miss just smiled at the sight of his presence. A smile she hadn’t given to Edie or the receptionist. Not like this. Edie began to think as she looked at the way Miss’s eyes lit up like a predator looking at her prey, “How many playthings does this woman have?” Though she kept that thought to herself. Miss kissed his lips and leaned her body into his. She pulled at his bottom lip with her teeth making him wince. Miss glanced over at Edie, “Stefan, this is … Edie….” Now Edie’s got big but again, thoughts roamed through her head and she dare not speak her thoughts, “Edie? Why did she address me like that… Like I was nothing more than a simple toy for her to play with and discard…” Miss continued, “I want to make a woman out of her yet and I knew you would be happy to oblige me. I want her to suck on a thick cock then we’ll use her beautiful ass. You should see it, Stefan…” Edie’s eyes widened and she wanted to stand, “Wait.. What?! I’m to suck and get my ass used by him? How is this a therapy session? Seriously Edie… Get up RIGHT NOW and leave! On the count of three I want you to get your ass up off the floor and Go and not look back…. 1 ….. 2 ….. 2 ½ ….2 ¾ …. 3…” By the time three came around she found herself with a thick 8” stud cock in her mouth. Stefan was using Edie’s face as if he hadn’t had the feel of a mouth around his manhood in quite some time. Edie found herself enjoying what she was doing. Feeling his hardness become harder… thickening… pulsing… dripping… she found herself loving every movement of that manhood in her mouth. Miss just watched and gestured with her fingers for Stefan to back away. She held out her hand to Edie to hold so she could rise, “Now, my dear… why don’t you turn around and hike that skirt up and grab your ankles for Stefan. Let’s make you more of the woman you want to become…the woman you desire to be…” Edie found herself looking at the receptionist who remained on her knees, resting her bottom to her heels and palms facing upwards on her thighs. She kept her gaze to the floor. Stefan looked at Miss Raven and became a little flush in the face but said not a word. His chest heaved up and down quickly. What did she have over Stefan? What did she have over the Receptionist? How many others did this woman have? Edie turned around slowly and Miss grabbed her bottle of lube by the lamp near the couch. She looked at Stefan with a brow raised and handed him the bottle. Edie looked over at Miss unsure of what was going to happen. Though she knew her sweet ass was going to be used. Miss looked in Edie’s direction, “Bend over and hold on to your ankles. I won’t say it again!” Edie swallowed hard and did as she was told. Again fingers lubing her up and then the fingers moved away… Miss chuckled as she stood there, feet crossed at the ankles and arms folded as she leaned against the couch, “Whenever you’re ready, Stefan…” Edie’s mind wanted to shout out, “Whenever HE’S ready? Seriou…..” was all that she could think before she felt that thick meaty cock begin to penetrate her from behind. To be continued 🤗

When all else seems like it's to heavy to bare, she seems to always appear from a distance in the sign of a Raven... Whether it's a shadow or the bird, she is always there making me feel safe and secure in my own self, within her I am me, free to be whoever I am that day, I love her beyond this universe, beyond all beings, for I am accepted as me...... sweet e ❤️

What does Miss mean when she says I’m about to find out what it’s like to be a girl?” My mind is racing yet I want this so bad. I feel her fingers slip out from my ass and then something begin to penetrate me that was thicker. I knew what it was and Miss heard me wince, “Don’t move!” she sternly said again and I continued to grip on to my ankles. She screwed my ass hard and fast. I heard her giggles and smirks. Slapping both ass cheeks now and again. Leaving her handprints upon my skin. Part of me wants it to stop, yet the other part of me wants more. I want her to take me to a place I’ve never been. My brain is screaming at me, “What are you doing? Get out of there! Get away!” but I find myself summoned to be here. To stay in this position for her pleasure. I don’t want to move until she is done using me up. Miss slips the toy from my ass and thrusts it in harder. I find myself wincing louder which makes her laugh even louder. She’s enjoying this and whether I want to admit it or, so am I. I hadn’t noticed the receptionist on her knees in front of the door watching this whole time. Miss Raven was serious when she said this woman was hers as well. Miss Raven grabbed my arms and pulled them back as she thrust into more. Then she thrust into me and made this heavy sigh as if she had a release of her own and then slipped the toy out of my ass. “Stand up tall!” She demanded of me and I did so. My ass was sore from being used while the receptionist quickly took off Miss Raven’s toy. She whispered something to the woman who quickly exited the room after nodding. Miss Raven gestured for me to follow with her finger as she made her way back to the couch. I went to sit but she held her hand, “I didn’t give you permission to sit did I?” I shook my head. Not sure what to say, “No…” Miss Raven arched her brow and narrowed her gaze at me. I could almost feel her pierce through my body with her eyes, “No, what?” She asked. Her voice was a bit deeper as she moved closer to the edge of the seat. I swallowed and felt as if I had a dry mouth. I could feel my heart beating in my throat, “No Miss.” Her eyes still narrow as she eyed me and a quaint little smile rolled across her red lips, “That’s better Edie. I’ll make a woman out of you yet…” The receptionist came back in and I watched this device handed to Miss Raven. It looked like a plug with some sort of remote and my mind went racing again. “Oh, what the hell have I gotten myself into now? Edie, now is the time to make a mad dash for the door and not look back.” Miss Raven smiled and gestured for me to turn around as she stood and twirled her fingers. I complied. She had me lean down and grab my ankles again. I felt the lube on my asshole then this slippery sound going on. I’m assuming she was lubing up the toy. The receptionist folded a thick towel down on the smaller sofa. I felt the toy penetrate my ass. It felt a bit thicker than her toy and once she got it in she told me to sit down and cross my legs like a lady. I complied immediately. I had no plans of not complying then she asked if Edie loved being used like this. I nodded then felt a strong vibration in my ass. I wanted to turn into putty. It felt so good and the vibration was strong. I was squirming around as I sat there. “Be still!” She said quick and demanding. How could I? My ass was sore from being used, now a toy in it vibrating that spot and my dick is caged. Of course, I wasn’t going to question her authority. I wasn’t in the position to do that. She yielded all the power and I welcomed it. I don’t know why I did welcome it as much as I did. Maybe it was Edie that was enjoying it more than I realized. Maybe Edie was becoming free and the other part of me was vanishing before my very eyes. My duality was fighting for freedom from each other. Who in the end would win? I think Miss Raven will win in the end. She knows how to seduce and lure one in. She has this pull to bring those in closer to her without others realizing… I don’t know how she does it, but Edie isn’t fighting it. She wants this feminine side to come out. Miss Raven catches my eyes wandering. Knowing I’m thinking, “You are unsure of what is happening and how you manage to still be here and haven’t tried to flee, I’m assuming…” I looked in her direction and nodded. She hit the button on the remote again and I felt the buzzing harder in my ass then quick pulses. She didn’t even look down as she pressed the buttons. She pressed them as if she had known where they were her whole life. Or she was just winging it and was just pressing any random one to see the expression on my face. I doubt it though. How could I be that presumptuous of someone like her like that? “Damn, what has she done to me?” I thought as the waves kept coming and I dropped my head back and felt myself panting more in pleasure. My chest heaving up and down from the pleasure. “Good girl…” Miss Raven said softly.....To be continued ....leaving Edie in a beautiful subspace with the allure of her scent of sweet cherry blossoms 🌸 

 
 

He awakes to the phone ringing, it's the office reminding me about my appointment and that my therapist had a special request. The appointment is set for her last of the day and it's a two hour session. She wanted to know if my evening was free, I kindly replied yes why do you ask, the receptionist giggles and replied you'll see , her other request is that I come dressed as Edie, you know that will make her very happy, so do you have a black dress and heels, yes I do but I've never been out in public, don't worry she said and this is part of your therapy. I nervously agreed and she'll be so happy she replied, oh one last thing Edie , no panties, that's a command not a request as she giggles. So doll your self up and we will see you this afternoon, before I could respond I heard the click of her hanging up. 
im so nervous as I closely shave my face, thinking after my first session what could be next! . I do my makeup, slip into my short black dress, put my cute white and black 5"heels on, choose my auburn wig, I feel so sexy in it and  re-powdered my face, touched up my makeup and took one last look, thinking you can do this ! 
as I get to the door I open it then shut it again, what the hell are you doing, you can't be seen like this, it's getting late and the last thing I want to do is be late. I take a deep breath and brave my way out the door, I'll admit it felt good, walking out to the car in my heels hearing the click as I walked felt so sexy.

I arrived at the parking lot and as I got out of my car I remembered no panties, now what do I do, I stood there for a minute reached down and slid them to the ground. I carefully stepped out of them bending over and picking them up. I heard a whistle from across the parking lot and started blushing. Not thinking that I just revealed my bottom  to some man. I hurried to the office embarrassed and nervous and trembling. I enter the office and no one was waiting, thank god I think to my self . BI take a seat crossing my legs like a lady, then hear the receptionist call my name, oh my Edie you look amazing as she smiled, MissRaven cleared her evening schedule just for you, now follow me.

  As I sit in the office, so many thoughts have been in my head, nervous yet excited, what is this session about. Then I hear MissRaven voice as she enters the room, obey, and my mind went blank... the trigger word from my first  session. She looked so amazing yet she was in control , I stood and got on my knees bowing before her.without a word. Good girl now rise and turn around for me....again... I respond, now walk to end of office spin on one foot and return to in front of me, as I return to in front of her, she says good girl again you walk wonderful in heels, your right this is what your meant to be. She rings a bell and the receptionist enters with a tray, it has these metal cages on it! Now lift your dress and don't move, I'm trembling to no end, oh my your such a obedient girl, this small one will be perfect as the receptionist giggles , getting a evil stare from Miss she quites up quickly. I feel a grasp, tug and then hear a click, now you won't be needing that little thing anymore as she giggles. You will never touch it without permission understand... yes Miss. good girl she responds and btw Gracie the receptionist was just like you once , until she became mine, now your mine aren't you, yes Miss I am yours! So Edie you came to me to find out who you truly are, I already know and you will when I'm finished with you this evening, once our session is completed you will be going home with me as my new maid..without question yes Miss, why am I agreeing to all this I have no control of my thoughts? So today's session is simple, you said you always felt different like a girl, well for now on you are a girl! I will remove all thoughts of your manhood, how Miss I ask, she giggles and said look in that full length mirror what do you see, a woman I respond, she giggles ands replied, I see a girl who will do whatever I ask when under Hipnosis. why am I not trembling, it's like a out of body experience, so now my dear Edie I'm going to take your manhood away... turn around and I want you to bend over and grasp your ankles, do it now, I respond without hesitation yet my brain is like what is happening!. I hear her walk away then walk back behind me, I suddenly feel this coldness of this wet and slippery feeling as she caressed my back side now relax and I feel her slip a finger in my ass and turn it around , no worries just a little lube, then a second one and my knees almost buckle, you must relax now be a good girl in a stern voice ! She works them slowly as I start to relax, well my dear girl Edie your about to find out what it's like to be a girl....,, to be continued 

Good Morning, for anyone who struggles with identity, I hope you all like because your all beautiful to me💋

Many here know I battle with identity, am I non binary, transgender, gender fluid is the question ? Either way they are just all labels, recently I've been exploring my Sexuality and find how free I am when I'm her, I'm a great man and husband too , but she is my soul which is been hiding inside of me for a very long time, tonight I introduced her to myself embraced her and went out in public, not giving a damn what anyone else thought..., Edie dressed up and went out and had a fabulous dinner and some wine alone. I'm not quite ready to take on the world cause my life doesn't allow it but it sure felt good being her/me....I amazing beautiful and handsome, I am simply me❤️