My slave and I had been, until the last month or so, enjoying a fairly consistant everyday Mistress/slave routine. However with our upcoming move coming closer and the preparations taking over all of our time I find that our preffered lifestyle has fallen to the wayside. I find that I miss it a lot. I am the dominant in our relationship, I miss the power exchange, I miss the feeling of domination and the power that I have over my slave.
I have also felt a lack of satisfaction. One of the most satisfying parts of a scene for me as a dominant is the aftercare that I provide for my slave. His need for my strength and affection. I hope that when we have settled into our new place after this move we will be able to return to the Mistress/slave dynamic. I hate to think that this disruption could be a permenant (or semi-perminant) one.
Life recently has been very stressful, another aspect of the transition and the consequential shelving of our BDSM dynamic is that his chronic pain has increased dramatically. I feel impotent. Watching him dealing with his pain and physical difficulty is a heavy burden for me. I want to sweep him off his feet and carry him to a chair or the bed, do everything for him so that he doesn't have to worry or stress but can just rest. However I can't it is neither practical, nor is it healthy as it would further injure his pride. But it is frustrating to watch my Sweet suffer so when it is my place to protect him and care for him.
