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6 years ago. January 8, 2018 at 8:25 AM

As experienced as I come across their are times when I get an overwhelming sence of fear of the unknown, life can be full of confusion, self doubt seeps into the every day. Pondering how I could have done better can lead into a spiral of self criticism. I have personality flors  like all of us and there are times I tend to focus on these rather then positive attributes. It can be difficult for me to look at my self subjectively and when I do I can't always see what impact my behaviour is going to have or is having  on others. There are times even as someone who is a Dominant and sadisticlly minded I fall into a vulnerable head space. I have a tendency to travel around extremes of behaviour. And then crash for days and weeks as I recalibrate. 

I'm confused at the moment and little scared, I feel something is on the horizon I just can't tell whether it's going to be positive or negative.

Bunnie - Hugs to you Ivan, I hope you find your way through the struggles you’re having at the moment. I always remind myself that unfortunately the path of questioning, exploration and growth is uncomfortable, but it’s far better than the alternative ?
6 years ago
MasterIvan​(sadist male) - thank you Bunny stagnation is not something I cope with at all in anyway at least of this is going to be a Period of up heavle it won't be dull
6 years ago
Starlight82​(other female) - Thank you for sharing in such an open and honest manner. Being tested and challenged can be confronting but being a dominant doesn't exclude you from these feelings. If we do not question we can not grow. Without growth we can not move forward, we simply stay where we are. Yes it is scary as hell. Sometines i wish i owned a crystal ball, but where would be the fun in that lol
6 years ago
SirDionysus​(dom male) - Hello. I share this sentiment. There is no respite from the void. Embrace it fully. The terror of it comes and goes. For me even more so in dreams(visions?). Come to terms with the despair and then after a period of angst, or maybe driven by fragments of hope, anxiety, or self determination, instead of spiraling determine to enter self reflection.... move past it and the next time you experience such, attempt to confront it with the distractions and joys of life, or else by forcing yourself out of the comfort zone and exposing these thoughts/feelings for discussion with a group of trusted advisors (a support system that has proven itself is invaluable). Sometimes this can clear the fog. Good luck.
5 years ago

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