Submissive chris

With Coved crisis i am submissively alone smelling the panties of Miss Katie given to me earlier this year. Her perfume clings to the pink fabric along with her personal Female aromas, which i cherish. Miss Katie is over 70 years old, grey haired and lovely - maybe because i am gray haired too.
 
When i visit Her, i leave a gift of cash, which She appreciates.  In return, She allows me to crawl on the floor at Her feet. She enjoys it when i massage her feet and suck Her toes.
 
Sometimes we just talk. i describe my submissive bisexual life and She tells me of Her adventures with men and Women. She allows her robe to open and can see between her legs where some real men have entered her.  The idea makes me hot and how I would love to kiss between her legs where the men have been and where She received them.
 
She is shaved and shows it off to me, knowing how hot She is making me.  Occasionally, She enjoys hurting me with Her whip. She enjoys hearing me cry out!  But mostly we talk about how superior Women are and how worthless i am.
 
i have begged Her to let me masturbate while She watches but She only laughs at the idea. She thinks i am disgusting and worthless and only see me because i give Her money and She enjoys getting her feet rubbed.
 
Still, the last time i visited, She gave me a pair of her pink lacy panties to smell while i play with myself.  She is a generous Woman and I adore her.

slave chris

my submission and humiliation to a man always means sex. my submission and humiliation to a Woman doesn’t have to involve sex at all.
 
i am into fine wine and a few years ago i promised a very dominant Woman a bottle of something special and delicious. i was invited over and when She opened the door, She commanded me to get down on my knees. 
 
She had me crawl from the front door, wine bottle in hand, to Her dining area where Her Friends watched me crawl and giggled.
 
Kneeling on the floor by the dining room table, She had me open the bottle and crawl to each Friend who lowered Her glass so i could pour the wine.
 
After every one had a glass, they made a toast to “slave chris” laughing at me. She commanded me to crawl back to the front door. She opened it and i crawled out as the door closed behind me. The party continued without me.
 
The humiliation made me hot. Being humiliated and degraded by Women always makes me hot. I had to jack off in the car.
 
slave chris

Man emailed me about meeting him in a little used public mens room with a glory hole between two toilet stalls. His idea was that i could suck his cock through the glory hole and it would still be social distancing.  It was tempting because i adore sucking cock and i love sucking cocks in glory holes.  Sadly, reason took over – this is not what they mean by Social Distancing. i had to pass. It is very hard these days to be a bisexual submissive

slave chris

How I worship older Women. My wonderful most memories are when two older Women humiliate, degrade, insult me, joking with each other at my weakness for humiliation and my adoration of Women. I feel so worthless, so completely out of control. How I need it! How i needs be watched while i am degraded. i can't help myself.

slave chris

i’ve been watching a lot of porn these days of confinement because of the virus. i’m a bisexual submissive so i watch gay porn FemDom porn, lesbian porn, kinky and bizarre porn and once in a while conventional woman/man porn.
 
The thing that I find  missing from a lot of porn is emotion and passion.  If you were to look at my face while i was eating a pussy you could see clearly i was in extacy. If you were to see me suck a mans cock, my face would show that i was in heaven!
 
Not so with most of the porn  I have been seeing. Most of the suckers look like they are doing a job not enjoying an emotional experience. To me, being submissive to another person is a totally enveloping experience -  but not to most porn actors I have been seeing.
 
I’d like to think i was wrong and would appreciate knowing of porn scenes where emotion and passion wre clear and bvious.
 
slave chris

How frustrating it is to keep my social distance!
 
There is no Dominatrix to slap me around and kick my balls.
 
There is no Master to crawl for, while he pisses on me and fucks my mouth.
 
The only thing available is porn where i can watch other worthless submissives  like me getting used and abused while I jack myself off.
 
It is not enough
 
slave chris

i suck Don’s beautiful 8 inch uncut cock, every Wednesday around noon at a secret place. Don is one of my14 regular cocks that i suck frequently.  The way it works is that he drives and parks in this spot and i walk to his car get in the passenger side, close the door and get down on the floorboard and take his hardening cock in my mouth.
 
Don acts as a lookout to see if anyone might disturb music sucking but this is a great place and no one so far has spotted us.   It takes Don around 10 minute of my sucking his cock and licking his balls to cum in my mouth.  That’s the beautiful thing about it – he shoots his load right into my mouth and down my throat and i drink every single drop.
i love the taste of a man’s cum, just as i love the smell of a man’s unwashed cock and the smell of a man’s dirty underwear.
 
This last Wednesday will be the last time i suck off Don or anyone for awhile until the corona virus. i was able to communicate discretely with the other 13 men but Don’s contact had changed so i couldn’t cancel the blow job.  He did give me his new contact so i can advise him, like the others when i will be sucking cocks again.
 
This will be a very frustrating time for me because, as everyone knows, i am a submissive cock and cum addict. i can’t help myself. i just love being submissive to a man (or anyone) . i love it when a man treats me like the faggot trash that i am –looks at me with a little contempt.  He has no respect for me. i am just a useful too to get him off without a relationship.
 
Most of the men i suck off regularly are married men so they are safe. i’m the only one who sucks them (i think) so it is OK for me to swallow their cum. The following weeks will be frustrating for all of us but in the long run we must abstain for the health of the country. Even though I am a lowly faggot cocksucker –i am a good citizen.

slave chris

How strange! i woke up half asleep and in my imagination i had become a Woman –as I always wanted to be! my cock was gone and I had a cunt instead. i grew very sensitive breasts and my hair was very long! It was a wonderful feeling to be Female. The I saw next to me a very tall older Woman.
 
She was wearing a long gray skirt and low pump shoes. No lipstick but red fingernails.  She seemed very powerful and leaned on a cane and i thought to myself that maybe She would hit my Pussy with it or shove it into me but She didn’t.
 
She grabbed my long hair and pulled me up to Her and She spat on me and commanded that i crawl after Her. i was naked and totally vulnerable and willingly followed and then, i sort of woke up. 
 
i lay there wondering. Was this a premonition of the future? Was a powerful Woman reaching out to me?  i keep wondering – what does it mean?

slave chris

It was a very nice day on a very nice street when a very nice Lady opened a very nice door and led me through a very nice house to Her husband in a very nice bedroom. He was ready for me, cock out, porn on the tv and I wordlessly got down on my nees and began licking his balls. No conversation or word at all. i am there for one purpose only.
He pulls his legs back on the bed and I am thrilled to be licking his ass, watching his cock grow, the tip pushing out of his foreskin showing his piss slit, already wet with precum.
 
i am so thrilled to be on my knees pleasing a man, hearing his breathing go faster, feeling his cock getting harder and harder in my mouth until he explodes his load of cum right into my mouth so i can gulp it down. i love the taste and smell of cum and he is a married, safe man so i can enjoy the experience. i gulp it down. What a treat!
 
Then, wordlessly, i get up, smile at him and walk out of the bedroom. She walks me to the door and says, quietly, “glad you like to do that – I hate sucking cock and he loves it so much. I’ll call you when he needs a cocksucker again.”
 
The very nice street is pleasant as i walk with my mouth tasting of cum. What a civilized couple they are and how glad i am to be used by them.

How i love being submissive!

slave chris

She didn’t slap me because of anything  i said – i am always respectful when speaking to a Woman. She didn’t slap me for what i did – i never disobey or do anything a Woman would not want me to do. She didn’t slap me for anything I didn’t do – i always obey a Woman completely.
 
She slapped me just because she wanted to. She slapped me because it made Her feel good to exercise Her power over me to show Her superiority over submissive me. And She can hurt me, violate me, insult me, and humiliate me anytime She wishes, because I give Her myself in a complete power exchange.
 
I fear what she will do to me next – I fear it and welcome it.

slave chris