A very long time ago, i was almost 20 years old and was a confirmed totally promiscuous gay faggot bottom and it worried me.
Other young men had girlfriends, were settling down and i was sucking or getting fucked by 3 to 5 men every day and I was hot for more men.
A beautiful tall muscled man i was blowing regularly, suggested that i try sex with a woman to see if i liked it. If i did, it could change my entire life. He had the phone number of a Lady who turned tricks and arranged a meeting at her apartment.
i liked her immediately because she was much older than me (i adore older women- even now) a little over weight and very feminine in demeanor. After explaining my situation, and giving her money, she invited me into her bedroom where i took off my clothes.
“Oh, my,” she exclaimed, “you are all shaved and smooth. No pubic hair, no arm pit hair, smooth legs – you are as smooth as a girl.”
i explained that i like being feminine to men and shaving my body makes me feel feminine.
She invited me onto her bed, where she slipped out of her robe and took out a condom for me to put on before i fucked her.
“Would you like a half and half? I’ll suck your cock and then you can fuck me.”
She took hold of my cock and worked it before putting it in her mouth. She was not as good a cocksucker as i am but it felt good and my cock grew. Then she slipped the condom onto my cock and lay back so i could mount her and slip my cock into her pussy.
My cock went totally limp.
“Come on, baby I need to be fucked, put it in.”
i couldn’t get it hard. i played with it and it grew bigger but the moment i started to fuck her, my poor cock shriveled up. It was embarrassing.
“You are too queer,” she whispered, “a lot of guys fuck me and not one has gone soft like
you. Want to play with my pussy? Maybe it will get you hot”
She kind of slipped down and spread her legs and i got on the floor to get a good look. I loved looking at it. i was so active with men i hadn’t been with women. i suddenly realized that i wished I had a pussy like her pussy men could fuck instead of just my ass.
“Your pussy is so lovely, “ i whispered,” can I kiss it?”
“Oh, no, you don’t want to kiss it. I haven’t washed it and there have been five cocks fucking me so far today.”
“Please let me kiss it. I don’t care how dirty it is or how many men have fucked you. i need to taste it to smell it, please!!!”
It was wonderful! i was rubbing my face into and licking a pussy that had been fucked five times that day. i was licking where five cocks had been –where five cocks had cum inside her. i stuck my tongue up inside her where the cocks had been and licked.
It was so good to be there licking and smelling a pussy!. i wished i had a pussy instead of a cock. i wished i was female so more men would want to have sex with me.
Her attitude suddenly changed.
“You like that? You like licking where the men have fucked me? Want me to sit on your face?
Of course I did.
“Wait –I got to piss, baby.”
“Really? i – i (i was afraid to ask) i, i could i watch you piss?
“You like that? You want to watch the piss come out of my pussy”
“Yes – please”
“Come into the bathroom, sissy. You like watching women piss? Do you watch men piss?”
“Yes, I do. i like to hang around men’s rooms. i like to watch men take out their cocks to pee. i suck a lot of cocks in the men’s room. Sometimes i drink men’s piss.”
“Oh, my god, you are suck a fucking faggot pig. No wonder you can’t get hardon for a real Woman. Here, let me sit on the toilet and you can watch. Why don’t you kiss my toilet seat first. You know you want to you queer.”
i loved it! She let me lick her toilet seat. i rubbed my face against this intimate object – her personal space – her personal female space. Then i looked down into her toilet. There was a used condom floating there.
“Is that a condom, i asked.”
“Yes, baby, from the last guy who fucked me. You want it? It’s filled with his cum. Take it out of the toilet if you want. I guess I forgot to flush. Come on pig, put your face in the toilet and grab the condom with your fuckin teeth.”
my face was in the toilet water and I grabbed the condom with my teeth. i was so hot. A fresh condom! On the outside were her pussy juices to taste – on the inside a man’s fresh cum. i put it aside for the moment because she really needed to piss.
She sat down on the toilet and i crawled in front of her and placed my chin on her toilet seat. She leaned back a little so I could watch her piss. Then she rose a little up of the toilet and i put my mouth at her pussy. She reached behind my head with her hand and forced my mouth to her pussy, tight and she pissed right into my mouth.
She would pause pissing while i swallowed and then she began pissing again. i had never done this before and i was thrilled…i felt as if my mouth was her personal toilet.
“Tell you what, freak ” she whispered, “you suck on that dirty condom and I’ll jack you off. OK?”
i lay down on the cold bathroom floor and she knelt beside me. Suddenly she slapped my cock hard. “It hurts,” i whimpered.
“Of course it hurts, you fuck. I’m gonna hit your balls, fuck face.”
The pain was somehow exciting.
i put the used condom into my mouth and bite down on it, puncturing the rubber and I could taste the cum dribbling into my mouth.
“That is soo dirty, “ she whisperered, “you are such a fucking freak.”
Suddenly, she started jacking me off harder and harder. Then she started slapping my cock, gently at first and then harder.
“You like that, freak?”
i was breathless, “yes, please, hurt it, hurt my cock, hurt me, please hurt me.”
Something about sucking a strange mans cum out of a used condom and having my cock slapped harder and harder by a Woman made me totally loose it and i came –shooting a huge load over everything.
“Lick it all up, baby, lick my fingers clean.”
i licked up every drop of my load off her fingers, off the floor, off my fingers, every drop.
You are a fucking wimp girlyman freak, arn’t you?
“Yes, yes I am.”
“you are about the lowest piece of scum I have ever met.”
She slapped my face.
“Get out of here. You got my dried piss all over your fuckin body and cum in your mouth. Put your clothes on i want you to leave here smelling like the toilet you are.’
i put my clothes on over my very smelly body. She started to laugh.
“Funny- you come here to be a man and you learned that you aren’t a man. You are not a man are you?”
“No..no I guess not.”
“But you are a real freak, you know that? People can push you around and you love it. People can humiliate and degrade you and you just love it. Come see me again and maybe I can push you.”
“What do you mean push”
“Take you down to the next level, freak. Take you down and down into the gutter, into the darkness. There are people who just love playing with freaks like you. There are fun parties where people can really get you to do things, nasty things to publically humiliate you. But you got to be obedient and follow orders. See? Call me if you want me to train you.”
After I left, i sat in the car breathless for a while thinking over what i had just gone through. She had opened a door for me. Now I had to find out if I wanted to go through the door and explore the other side.