Adventures through the dark side.

Fractured halo, smoldering wings—

led by wicked celestial strings.

Unholy embrace, flesh viscerally craved,

angelic virtue bent and depraved.

Prayers bartered for carnal corruption,

answered in godly, sweet destruction.

Every scar, every stain, every sacred mark—cursed,

a blasphemous, insatiable thirst.

Profane pleasures mock the divine caveat,

kindling the infernal mania begat.

Risking eternity entombed in hell,

where daemonic desires thrust and swell.

Our union summons heavenly wrath,

condemned by seraphic jury at last.

Unhallowed vows we dare intone—

a marriage salvation will not condone.

Damned throne no longer afar,

Maleficent Queen of Morningstar.

I wrestle dreams that I dread

Numbness spreads within my head.

I will smile, play the part

But slowed is a damaged heart.

Pretending to be alright

While shadows swallow my light.

Laugh on cue, hide what I feel

Standing when I want to kneel.

Lasting, this battle I fight

While withering through the night.

No place, person, have I found

To keep my peace above ground.

Breaking, no space for my cries

This pain carried tells me lies.

Lost in a crowd that won't see

That this world is killing me.

Surrounded, with no one there

Suffocating, fears I bare.

Words that are light, weigh me down

Secrets causing me to drown.

Sadness dampens every sound

Each step, a new failure found.

Love stole away, without trace

Scars knotted, like hardened lace.

I begged, they all looked away

Disregarded, my truths stay.

If I were gone, would they care

Or fill my space with dead air?

Loss leathered a second skin

Tragic war, never to win.

I'm not stable, they are blind

To shattered wants, tired mind.

No single being understands

None hold me, no gentle hands.

Louder I scream, still no sound

Sink deep, never to be found.

Trapped in a cage no one sees

That was designed without keys.

When you pass me, when we meet

I will nod, be polite, sweet.

You won't know, beneath my face

Churns chaos I can't erase

I am here, nowhere near whole

Fading echo, dimming soul

Every second in a disguise

Ashes, faking the strength to rise.

Oh, the fun to be had

Less than a pound 

Delicate silky thing 

Recently found 

Intoxicating pain

Soft red velvet 

Love losing its safety 

Enticing net

Deliciously spiraled

Beautiful bruise 

Granted pleas, pleasures stolen

Begged for abuse

Every fragile line crossed 

Blank voided trust

Secrets, dead promises 

Smothering dust

Forged weapons from sweet dreams 

Used to destroy 

The games that I will play

Shiny new toy

No purpose to struggle

Blinded by hopeless light

Surrendering to madness

Heavy shadows, pitch night

Pain pilfered, returned ash

Stumbling over lost love

Ignoring soft healing

Passed by safety above

Trapped into the fall

Imprisoned by secrets

Scars that strangle tightly

Drowning peace in regrets

Seeking all that vanished

Yesterday stole whole hope

Tomorrow ruined dreams

No escape, knotted rope

Abysmal existence

Deafened, no verity

Despair tricks, silenced joy

Feigning a parity.

Wasted good intentions

Draw the blood, now it flows

Embrace the emptiness,

Stillness, and no one knows.

Do not love me yet, for I

Am still a slender moon,

A scimitar about the heart

Too sharp to touch too soon.

Before I'm touched I need to grow

More full in golden light;

I need to smile upon my earth

And rule some patch of night.

I need to know what roads and fields

Lie in my domain

And dull my brand new ecstasies

With sophomoric pain.

I need the love of some blank boy

As cold and dark as me,

That we might grope in ignorance

A fear of what might be.

And then, when I'm a silver bowl

And know what I can hold,

Then, then, perhaps, we could try love

If you're not too old.

Dreams do come true, but only when

They make it through despair,

Limping into everyday

Transformed beyond repair.

No dream would be a dream if it

Could pass for something real,

Nor would we sail for paradise

Would it it's shoals conceal.

So it is with love; the dream

Long longed for, now possessed,

Must be a dream no longer, but

An emperor undressed.

Stark naked it must come to us

In unaccustomed shame,

And we must take it in our arms

And love it all the same.

And we must love love as it is

That dreams might still come true,

Mangled into miracles,

To make our lives anew.

For the hurt that I've done

I am sorry

I am careless with hearts

It's my nature

Selfishness resides here

Loneliness bound

Mischievous malice 

A thoughtless thug

Blind are egos like mine

You are faultless

My desires are simple

You were not weak

The only mistake was me

Wrong lover loved

You are perfectly real

I am a fraud

Wishing for you bold love

Filled with truth

Respect Everlasting

Not one of greed

Heart moved on long ago

You unaware

An eternal cycle

Disparate soul

Give me the pleasure 

In the form of pain

My skin remembers

Leave marks like a stain

Slut, is what you say

Name that makes me wet

Scratches down my spine 

Take me like a bet

You are my weakness 

Voice cuts through my soul 

No gentleness, no love

Command, my knees low

Brought to that sweet place 

Forever I could stay

This is where I thrive

Where I never pray

Demand to obey

I'll be your good girl 

Yes Sir, devotion

You are my whole world

Whispers, my sweet death

Lifting then crushing

Vows that are binding

Leave my blood rushing

Use my fears to heal

Steal breath, take my air

Fill me with consume

Always take me there

I see the fire

Spark in your eyes

Already know

It's my demise

The moves you make

I lose control 

Pull me deeper

Swallow me whole

I'm addicted 

I can't deny

Every hot kiss

Feels like I'll die

You'll take my breath

But let it go

Faster heartbeat 

I want it so

If it breaks me

Please let it stay

My soul was born

To burn this way

If I fall hard

I'll still choose pain

Fire in your eyes

Calling my name

I felt your voice

Slicing my chest

But I still crawled

To pass your test

Chains of desire

That never break

You're my ruin

Sweetest mistake

If it kills me

Just let it be

I was made for

Your cruelty