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Disturbed, demented, and deviant

A glimpse into my mind
3 years ago. November 19, 2021 at 4:39 AM

T shirt, panties, and feet wet from the rain of a brisk autumn, I stand Powder Proud with a cigarette in my hand as I soak in the power of the Goddess at the peak of her fullness. (For those of you that don't know its a movie about an albino kid who attracts lightening.) 

I start thinking of Mr X and Lady K who are both asking for relationship advice from me. Turns out she's not a Domme, and he's a Daddy.

The motives around the whole relationship are askew. He's just been dumped, and Mr. C who is a friend to both knows that X's a great guy and and that K's marriage is on the jagged peak of Everest. He solves all her problems. He's handsome, virile, bisexual Adonis, and he wants her, finds her attractive. Plus at X's expense, she gets a new home, a new job, and regular wonderful sex as kinky or vanilla as she needs.

I know what it's like to use one person to pry yourself out of a bad relationship by entering into a new one. So I see what's going on. K's trying to hold on to the new stability she's found as she feels it slowly unwinding to its doom. She's told lies to get there. She told him she would do anything, be anything for him. She told him she revelled in the same kind of kinks he NEEDS in his life. The plan is falling apart (3 months) so far, too soon, but they both met a special girl, one who is exactly who he needs.

Cause this special girl knows a slut when she sees one, and Lady K isn't one. She hasn't turned down a two guy threesome yet, but what woman would? She's making rules as soon as they meet someone because she knows. I see through her mask. She knows he's too extreme for her but she's really comfy. She knows denying him is making him unhappy.

They would have figures it out 3 years later when X is openly going off on his own to meet his needs, and K resents that he has them. Until one day, one of them finally snaps. But they met the special girl and K likes her as a friend, a best friend. X sees his other half standing in front of him. And now he's cursing himself for jumping at the first girl who offered instead of waiting for the one waiting on him.

Sad thing is they don't deserve to be miserable. They both deserve to be happy. He deserves to have a main squeeze who's proud to be his slut, and K deserves a man with tamer appetites who will care for her just as well.

I can't say anything. I'm biased. I wanna lay down at his feet and offer him my service, but she and I are friends and it's horrible to screw over a friend. Even when they realize that they're not for each other, I'll still be off-limits in girl code. So I gain everything I've ever wanted in a man and lose a friend. Or I keep the friend and most likely lose another friend. Or I break the news to them, and they both hate me.

I've only met two men in my life that I just wanted to drop down and worship them. One was married to the wrong person, and the other's dating the wrong person. I left the other couple to get thier priorities straightened out, and they stayed together blaming thier rough patch on me. I don't wanna lose two friends. 

Am I what's wrong with thier relationship? 


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