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Hello all
I'm unsure if I should create a blog, my thoughts not all will understand, they may seem dark to some yet I find peace in who I am.
This journey is so very new to me and yet I am unsure if I will ever understand my self, yet I am finding peace and comfort in excepting myself.
I find myself writing down my thoughts that are constantly in my mind it helps calm the chaos.
I thought a blog may help me to better understand them.
1 day ago. Thursday, March 5, 2026 at 10:34 PM

Roles/Titles where has the depth and meaning of the lifestlye gone?

The old ways seem lost to the new.

So many rush without understanding, education and forget that titles and roles hold a meaning, respect and depth behind them.

As I scroll the net I see it so many times titles thrown out there.

I question have you educated your self on the true meaning of that title?
Does it represent you?
Are you true to that title?

One i see often in two diffrent forms is Alpha Sub

Below is the original meaning of what a Alpha sub is...

Alpha Sub
An Alpha Sub is a Submissive who holds a position of power within a polyamorous or hierarchical BDSM structure. They are often the "lead Sub" within a dynamic involving multiple submissives and may have authority to give orders to lower-ranking submissives while still being subordinate to the primary Dominant.

The new ways states basically that a Aplha sub is a strong sub that does not submit easily and is capable of looking after themselves and does not need a Dominant as they are in control of their every day life unless they choose to submit.

To me all subs are strong in their own way, in their own submission.

They may have a stressful job or day to day lifestlye.


When we choose to submit to someone it is becouse we have found that Dominant worthy as they do with us.

One who can give us grounding and quiet.
Allow us to have a safe place within them where the outside world drifts away.

That is the exchange of power.

It dosnt matter if your a puppy/little/service sub ect all subs are strong in their own way.

submission is a strength in its own.


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