Not that there's anything wrong with that.
Solitude is where we find ourselves,
or so the pensive like to say
Being lonely offers you a distinct perspective
I'm not though
Lonely
Overwrought
disorganized
Slightly confused most of the time to be honest with you
Not really lonely though
Off put
by humanity as a whole
would probably be more apt
Though I often find myself seeking connection
Life is much more comfortable without it
Like missing your mom
when she never really acted like one
in those universal moments where we all long for her
the feeling doesn't prompt you to ring her up like some would never hesitate to do
people tend to laugh a lot
when I talk
or tell stories
but you would have to bind and drag me on stage to perform comedy
which is the same way I feel about dating now
prospectives love to talk about effort
"show me you care"
honey, I don't
and it's going to take a lot to change that
honestly the connection I long most for is community
knit bond together through sheer intimacy
i find myself reaching out as much as possible to my people
spread far and thin
because forging bonds out of desperation
is troped out for me
There are humans out there
I know
Who could bond and relate
But the exhaustion of socialization
is something I'm reserving for game days and birthday parties at this point
Reveling in briefness of expanding solitude
