through the eons of existence
the consistency of fate
rebounds consciousness
why can't that be what it is this time?
total nonsense
inexplicable
fate
i'll hate you the moment you walk into the room
my most ardent hope
that it will
melt away in an instant
and i can hug you tight and warm
without puking
or burping!
indelicate
anxious indigestion
truly, i am the bravest girl in the world
to allow the indulgence of human emotion
unprecendent and uncalled for
But we forge ahead and through uncharted territory grasping for significant beyond the individual
The
Individual
The Man
A prime specimen of one, at that
we aren't allowed to think about that!
not anymore
one thing at a time
health
care
home and
wealth care
love only fits in where it falls
into each other and ourselves and
ideally
not through the cracks
and back into the past
if only a heart could break all at once
rather than wilting slowly as a well tended flower
each petal falls and another shattered panel of good memories has tumbled along with it
where i had found peace and joy
for the first time
was mirage
illuysionary and
cruel
if only people could leave well enough alone
is it that impossible to depart with good intentions?
maybe something inside of me has been so fouled along the way
this is as i am
