Many people messaged me these couple of days. I'm extremely humbled and thank you for all your attention and kindness. If I don't have a chance to reply your message, all I'd like to say is I'll get on my knees for you in this cyber world and please forgive me.
These days, the more I think about how I started to coming out, the more I could think of these two words - LET GO...
To be honest, I don't exactly know what and how to let go, I just want to loosen up. Give up the tightness in my body, the tense coming from work, the anxiety trying to please everyone and anyone, the pain that I feel when I feel like being left out... We just have to admit that we all have those days or moments, that we feel extremely vulnerable, yet we still try everything we can wanting to hide it, put up a mask and tell everyone, "I am ok."
No, I am not ok, I want to strip everything off, my clothes, my tightness, my dignity, my self-esteem, my control and power at work, even my intentions are not important. Now I'm light as a feather, floating in the air with all my arms and legs spreading out...
Now that I've completely LET GO, it's a good time to use, power over, and fuck me, both my body and my mind, fill me up with all the good new essence...
