Thoughts of an orphan

One of my deepest beliefs has always been... that I will be abandoned. That I will never TRULY be loved. Yes, people may love me for a while but then they will get bored of me. It has happened many times before. So much so, I started rejecting them to avoid the ultimate rejection that I thought was inevitable.

The Domme I am seeking will not abandon me. She will love and accept the neediest weakest parts of me. Is this too much to ask?

Maybe it is, I don't know...