Thoughts of an orphan

My third sex magic ritual took place yesterday, at the time of the full moon. This time I used honey as a way of bringing forth the sweetness of sexual submission to the Goddess. When I masturbate as an act of worship, I also penetrate myself, which symbolises my need to open myself and receive the power of the Goddess and be her slave. I dab the finger that I have put inside myself with honey and taste it. It is all the sweeter. As I come for the Goddess I repeat my request to unite sex and spirit, sex and spirit. I also ask the Goddess to bring women into my life who will help me build the connection.

For the rest of the day I feel vulnerable, opened up, supersensitive to the Goddess around me.

I am going to rest now from these rituals.