Thoughts of an orphan

I am a son of the Patriarchy. I am white, male, straight, non-disabled, middle class. I was sent to a private school. I was expected to become a leader of men... Yet all through my twenties I drifted. I couldn't stick at a job, a relationship, a place. I wanted to be a writer but that never really worked. I felt like a flop. Yet whenever people criticised the Patriarchy, I felt honour bound to defend it, like they were criticising me.

I deeply desired and deeply resented powerful Women, and my own true nature as a submissive. Only now, slowly, by submitting to the Goddess, am I beginning to feel Whole.