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Sad

1 year ago. March 7, 2023 at 2:45 PM

I don't write when I am sad. The tears blur my vision and I make errors. My ideas are choppy, incomplete.

Plagued by this pain that chews at the edge of my heart; I can't express it clearly enough. My sentences break like my heart is doing.

My smile doesn't reach my eyes, fake and forced as I die steadily inside. I want to scream and cry but my face remains this mask. 

I want to tell someone...anyone how much this hurts. I want to be heard, comforted. I want someone to tell me its alright. 

I don't write when I am sad because it shows how pathetic I am. How human. And that is the most exposing thing that could ever happen. 

Pandaish. 

MedicineMan​(dom male) - We are all human...
1 year ago
erzascarlet​(sub female) - You always have a friendly ear here.💜
1 year ago
Sweet p e a​(sub female) - I know it may only help a little, but sometimes a little can be enough.

Here, you can speak, you can be heard, you will be comforted,

I don’t write when I’m sad either, terrified to show the world how broken I sometimes feel, how inadequate and alone.

I’m sorry for your pain Pandaish
1 year ago
Pandaish​(sub female){Mr Gregory}Inline member - Thank you, for relating with me.. nice to know I'm not alone in these feelings.
1 year ago
Max Heathen​(other male) - You wrote this for a reason. So you're pathetic or more accurately empathetic and sympathetic which means you have a heart. Feelings that actually feel. Your weakness is to a person like me, your strength. If it wasn't for people like you writing all your ooshy gooshy, boo hoo... I honestly wouldn't know how to comfort others when it happens around me. I'm analytical and I lack empathy and sympathy. So while you see me standing like a solid rock, sheltering my Slave from the world, its because I lack those things you and she has. To me, it is weakness, pathetic... and very powerful. If you hurt, you're feeling are really hurting, for me if I'm hurting it's most likely my ego or character being attacked. When you say Love, you mean all the romanticized, love conquers all, kissy kissy... when I say love, it means I'll protect you from everything including myself. I'll respect, listen and try to show/say, all that gobbley goop that I don't understand how it "feels"
So for those monsters out there, like me, who wonder what it feels like, sometimes wishes they could... please do go right ahead and be you. I wont simp over it but I'll either be supportive, wherein we both may learn something in the exchange.... or I'll just stfu and leave a like.
1 year ago
Pandaish​(sub female){Mr Gregory}Inline member - This is real and unabridged. Thank you for being willing to tell me this. Its...what I needed to hear.
1 year ago

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