2 years ago. Tuesday, March 7, 2023 at 9:45 AM
I don't write when I am sad. The tears blur my vision and I make errors. My ideas are choppy, incomplete.
Plagued by this pain that chews at the edge of my heart; I can't express it clearly enough. My sentences break like my heart is doing.
My smile doesn't reach my eyes, fake and forced as I die steadily inside. I want to scream and cry but my face remains this mask.
I want to tell someone...anyone how much this hurts. I want to be heard, comforted. I want someone to tell me its alright.
I don't write when I am sad because it shows how pathetic I am. How human. And that is the most exposing thing that could ever happen.
Pandaish.