Let's talk about Surrender. An elephant on my shoulders I felt chained down. Bound by my own sense of duty I suffered and wilted; that lone daisy in the window seal of my kitchen.
Being a child born from addiction. I learned to keep together control of everything I could. Tightly I wove my control into my very bones; barbed wire writhing around my ribs and through my lungs.
My mother was a woman of free love. She loved whoever kept her safe, a term she used loosely. Her love came in the shades of blue and purple and always hid it's best behind a smile. A raindrop on a dreary day.
My journey to heal myself has be long and hard; Never ending and as bitter as a grudge of a woman scorned. I have learned that my love is pure and big enough for more then a single person. I love who I love. I don't hold back. I don't give a little of myself.
I love
With all
That I am.
Surrender has come with serenity. A peace I am only just getting to meet. I am a woman of density. A purity of love that I won't let years of pain and scorn tarnish for I know how rare and truly beautiful it is.
I surrender to fate, threads of burlap and silk tightly woven on the tapestry of my life.
-Pandaish
