amalthea

sub female

In a monogamous relationship

I am a happily married 42 y.o. woman with who has been exploring my kinky side with my amazing Primal husband. We have recently acknowledged that we aren't opposed to polyamory or at least an open relationship, with the understanding that we are each other's number ones. 

I have learned, in this journey that I am definitely a brat and an "alpha" female in my everyday life. I connect with Daddy Doms and Doms. I'm am not comfortable as a slave nor am I into someone being my Master. I respect those who are, I just have no reaction.

I have always struggled with feelings of shame regarding my interest in being submissive, spanking, kink, and my little side. I have been working on this over the past two years. Overall,  I am an alpha woman in the world and a strong leader but being submissive in my bedroom and in aspects of my everyday life allows me to relax. It helps me manage the chaos within. I love to laugh, read, learn, and try new things. I value honesty, open-mindedness, and a willingness to learn or educate oneself. I love music but cannot sing or play instrument but I appreciate it. I love theater, libraries, the ocean, and the woods. I do not like bugs. Don't like rude people either. I am quirky and can find the silver lining in most things.

I am content in my marriage and love our dynamic. That being said, I yearn for a Daddy. That is something I am still coming to terms with and I struggle with the idea of having Daddy take control. I have never had that and I long for it. 

For me, it isn't solely about sexual relations but intimacy. Boundaries, discipline, structure, nurturing. To have someone who doesn't need me to focus on them but is to focus on me. To this I submit. To this I obey. I can be free to be a little girl who challenges Daddy and longs to please Daddy but doesn't have to carry the weight of the world. 

Nothing illegal...so yeah no kids. Scat, water sports, blood letting.

I am looking for a Daddy. I am definitely evolving and having a great time! My hubby is on the journey and it is definitely bringing a new balance to our marriage. It is forcing new dialogue that has been dormant for awhile and it has forced me to become more self aware AND accepting of myself.  I have met so many amazing people on this site: learned their stories, gotten direction, built friendships, and played too. Playing is fun!!! == Results from bdsmtest.org == 100% Brat 99% Rope bunny 96% Brat tamer 86% Primal (Prey) 81% Submissive 76% Boy/Girl 67% Masochist 67% Voyeur 64% Exhibitionist 59% Switch 58% Daddy/Mommy 58% Experimentalist 56% Primal (Hunter) 54% Non-monogamist 53% Dominant 52% Master/Mistress 46% Ageplayer 44% Pet 41% Vanilla 40% Slave 39% Owner 30% Rigger 5% Sadist 5% Degradee 1% Degrader

Oct 21, 2022

Aug 13, 2020