He was a part of my life for a long time. Father of my children. He is not gone from them yet, but today we did not get good news.
My plans were thrown into uncertainty, and I want to scream into the void, a black pit where the sound, as loud as it is to me, will not be heard to those around me.
Life is a gift and very precious. I cherish it. I have sons who are very confused and hurting today, and many decisions to make.
I am strong, as always, but i side, I am literally collapsing.
Cherish all your memories, if you can. Every memory becomes a beautiful blessing. Its all in how you choose to look at it.
Perhaps I returned too soon. Perhaps I did not. I am not surprised at the life test. I should come with a warning label.
Be blessed. Be love. Be kind. Be present. Just be your authentic, amazing self.
Much love.