My last blog entry was written on a day when I felt unworthy, and at the time, I didn't understand why.
I have to learn to understand quite a bit as a submissive, and particularly, my Sir's submissive. When he read my blog post, he sent me a beautiful message that put so much into perspective for me, a message that I truly needed to know.
When I have an injury or pain, it eventually passes. The pain is temporary. When I feel my emotions, I never realized that they were fleeting and not always there. Perhaps it was a false idea taught to me at some point in my life, but Sir explained it to me in a way that not only made sense, but was meaningful and mindful.
One of the greatest things that I love about Sir, is, his ability to bring clarity to my sometimes chaotic thoughts. He has a way to make me pause and listen, so I can take in a different perspective and learn, practice, and be a better woman, mother, partner, and submissive. I finally realized that this morning, and I needed to sit with how that made me feel. Sometimes, I need to feel uncomfortable in order to grow more. It makes sense to me, at least.
My feelings are important, valid and necessary to express, but not to remain stuck in. If my life is rooted in being meaningful, that foundation with Sir will keep growing forward and become more rooted in commitment and love. I admit my perception and idealization of love was like a fairy tale. Sir taught me how to see this from a different mindset, and in order for that to happen, my mind and heart and soul needed to be truly open to learning this lesson.
This is such an amazing journey. Thank you, my Sir. 💙🖤🐺