Humans don't realize how much control over yourself and life you don't have until your shown. Well I was shown and once I let the fear go and surrendered I felt as if I had a sense of control. It seemed to have control I had to surrender control lol I don't know, im a walking contradiction because at the same time I learned that having control is just an illusion.
This is only one piece of a puzzle I've learned. I've learned so much. It's gift is growth wrapped in a curse....
I don't know if many will understand what I've written and what I will write but even if letting just one person in this world know that their not alone just by connecting with the words i use and things i ramble on about well then all the fear and pain will have been worth it....maybe lol
