CtAndy's Random Thoughts and Writings

In the not too distant past I had an encounter with a young woman that was quite enjoyable on my part. After talking for a couple weeks she decided to come down and visit me for a day. She drove five hours down to where I was to come and see me. Five hours one way with only the promise of meeting up to get some ice cream. It ended up being a bit more than that, but still, a five hour drive one way.

So after the five hour drive we met at a dairy queen not far from where my house is. She was very shy, but she built up the courage to at least get a little ice cream. We ordered and had some light conversation waiting for our ice cream to be made. Once we got it we went back to my car and sat and talked while enjoying the sweet treat. After we had finished and talked for a while longer, I asked if she would like to come back to the house with me. She agreed and went back to her car to follow me.

We got back to the house and went inside. Spent a little bit of time introducing her to the dog and letting her get a little more comfortable. After a while we migrated to the couch at turned on some unimportant TV show and continued to talk. I asked her how she was feeling and what she was thinking and her response was simply "I'm shy".

I asked if she would be more comfortable texting me her thoughts instead of saying them and she nodded yes. So she turned to her phone and typed away. We had discussed at length the different things that we both enjoyed sexually over the last couple weeks. One of the things that she particularly enjoyed but was shy and bashful about was being throat fucked, used very hard, given little if any chance to breathe or recover, and having a man have his way with her for his pleasure.

My phone vibrated after she finished typing away. In short, her message said that she was shy and nervous but she really wanted to please me and just needed me to tell her what to do and she would do it. I asked her verbally if she was sure and she nodded yes.

"Good, very good." I say to her as she sits on the opposite end of the couch with her gaze averted down and away from me. I move over to her, grab her gently by the chin and lift her face towards me.

"Look at me." I say and she responds immediately.

I tell her "You're going to be my good little slut now and do what I want, but I know how shy you can be and I don't want you pushing yourself further than you can handle. So at any point if things get too intense for you, you are simply going to say Time Out. Do you understand?"

She nods her head yes again and I say, "No, for this you have to say it. I need you to tell me verbally that you understand and that this is what you want. Do you understand? Is this what you want?"

She turns her eyes downward again and says "Yes Sir, to both."

With that I step back away from her and sit back down on the couch. "On your knees in front of me." I command and she moves immediately.

Oh we are going to have some fun tonight. I think to myself. Yes we are going to have some fun.

To be continued.......

You would think that it wouldn't be this hard to find people to interact with or play with or even find a like minded partner. Why is it so difficult? I don't think that I'm too picky or too far out there compared to most. So why is it so difficult to find anyone or better yet actually make any kind of meaningful connection? Or am I the only one with this issue?

Anyone?

Hmm let's see where this might go. Could be interesting.

Let the definitions begin.

Define me in one word.

Original challenge:

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And GO!

If you aren't familiar with the thought problem of Shrödinger's cat, here is a simple explanation.

The problem is that if you seal a cat inside a box with something that can kill the cat, as long as you don't look inside the box, then both versions of reality exist simultaneously.

The version with the cat being alive exists at the same time as the version where the cat has died. Only when an observer opens the box does one of these versions of reality cease to exist.

What if in life everything is just like Schrödinger's cat? What if the near future is full of multiple possible realities, and only once we have decided on a course of action and then observed the results of our own decisions does one of those realities become real to us?

What if in the problem, we were able to make changes on the outside environment of the box that could potentially effect which reality we experience once we open the box?

If we look at life with this mentality or thought process, wouldn't that mean that we can potentially influence our own lives in any direction that we desire for it to go?

The simple decision to do something different today that you wouldn't typically do could change your entire life and all you have to do is make the choice.

So do you keep doing the same things you have always done? Or do you do something different?

When physical touch is a primary love language for someone, and their day to day is absent of affectionate touch, it can be very difficult to feel whole. It's really easy to fall into a deep depression that's difficult to get out of.

If you care about a physical touch person that doesn't have a person, give them a hug, they need it more than most non-touch people understand.

When the mood you're in doesn't match the circumstances to appease it.  

When you're in the mood to take out your frustrations on a willing woman. But not just any woman. Not all women can handle that kind of treatment. This sort of thing requires a special kind of woman.  

The kind of woman that can handle a truly merciless and remorseless throat fucking. That will lay with her head hanging over the edge and just take it. The kind of woman that isn't just able to handle the treatment, but enjoys it even.  

This wouldn't be a gentle event. It would be rough, forceful, and violent even. Repeatedly forcing the cock down her throat, not minding the gagging and choking. Even enjoying it. Starving her of the ability to breath as you use her throat as a fleshlight. Pushing all the way down regardless of how she struggles. Then at the last moment pulling out so she can swallow a huge gasp of air then have her mouth filled again.  

Using this woman's mouth for your own enjoyment and pleasure and release in any way you see fit. Make her gag and choke, smother her and make her show off her tongue skills, hold your had around her neck as you bottom out in her throat so you can feel it bulging. Then to finish up you fill her mouth, holding her all the way down and making her swallow everything she can.  

This is the kind of mood I find myself in. Unfortunately I'm also in a situation where there is not woman around that can appease it. 

The struggle is real.

Isn't it odd how relationships and situations that were commonly accepted and encouraged 200 years ago are completely unacceptable now? And vice versa.

For example, a relationship with a close friends family member would have not only been regularly accepted, but also highly encouraged in the past. Now the attitude regularly seems to be "how dare you think my family member is attractive."

And the inverse, a couple hundred years ago having relationships with someone outside your religion or ethnic group was not only frowned upon, but was at times met with violence. Now it's not only common place, it's encouraged to embrace people of different backgrounds.

It's odd some things that used to be ok no longer are, and other things that used to be taboo are more than ok.

People and the world are weird.

When the desire to do bad things is strong but there isn't a sub around to do them with.

The epitome of frustration.

Intention doesn't matter.

The perception is, and always will be the reality.

People almost always assume the worst, even when the intentions were good.

If you are too close to something it is impossible for you to see it for what it really is.

In order for you to see the truth of anything you must be able to step back and observe the perspective of the full picture.

Too many opportunities are missed by people that fail to widen their perspective and remain narrow minded.

Opening your mind to possibilities that you have never considered may show you that exactly what you are looking for is much closer than you expected, just in a different place or form.

The ability to shift perspective in awareness, to access and observe things through a meta-awareness, is a true super power of consciousness.

Expanding consciousness and the development of understanding one's self is the most profound exploration one can embark upon.