God I miss the days where life was simply cloud gazing and finding star constellations that looked like dicks.
Idk what I'm doing with my life. Everything is just so painful lately.
How do you figure out what you want from life? Is it possible to avoid hurting people along the way?
All I ever seem to do is push the ones I love the most too fucking far and I don't even try.
Is that lack a lack of empathy? Is it psychotic?
I'm a mess.
I don't know how to correct my mistakes who I am without someone there above me teaching me what I need to do. Leading me by my hair and helping me understand the things I can not.
I want someone to help to guide me to be patient and communicate with me what I'm missing, how I'm hurting them how to stop. But most importantly I need someone to teach me train me that how I show my love isn't how to love someone else.
I need to know how to love someone correctly, but who do I have to teach me what love is.
Not really anyone....the man I'm in love with doesn't have the patience to nurture my heart and I understand because I'm a fucking basket case who just can't seem to understand basic emotions
I'm in love with Ren.
