In my world, the phrase “Where did November go?” has been repeated a lot.
I lost it.
November got lost to the world inside my head, because reality was just too hard; too harsh; and too much. I did a lot of crying, yelling, and hiding from everyone and every thing.
I did a lot of healing.
I got obsessed with some new music.
I still work at the Park, but now I am in a little apartment instead of a dorm room. I have a sofa and a TV… and a stove/oven! I can cook real food again.
I’m not quite ready to people publicly yet. I still have lost myself; not quite sure who I am right now, and that … that’s dangerous; raw and vulnerable in a way that is painful and open to manipulation and abuse.
I miss my people though, and even if I am unable to check in… I do think about yous.
<3 ^.^
~~Savage~~