I'm sitting at work, on a crisp Monday morning. Ignoring the pile of work on my desk and thinking about what I've learned this past week.
~ i dont want to be pressured for nudes and videos, i want to give that eagerly to the one that has earned my trust, my submission and me.
~ when I feel pressured, i retreat, i hide, I go into a small box and lose myself to internal war. I get a bad feeling inside me, I doubt my worth, and it makes me sad.
~ i want to feel that he wants to get to know me inside and out, intimately, every inch of my body but my mind too. I want to matter. I dont want to be one of a million. I'm different, and I want someone who will love to unwrap all my layers.
~ i need to know him too, thats how trust works. Communicating and learning about each other. It takes effort from both sides. Is it safe to assume that someone who doesnt want that is only after quick sexual play? Maybe. I'm still uncertain.
I've made a couple of new friendships with lovely members who are gently offering advice & guidance. And I am so appreciative of this 🌷.
I wish i could post pictures, maybe I should consider premium.
