How do I tell people that my day was just fine?
It’s the time of year when I have to see both regular and irregular family. The distant ones will be no big deal to talk to, it’s the close ones that I’m going to struggle with. I don’t know what to say when they ask me what’s new. I want to be honest, being an open book is very healing to me, but there are some boundaries I have to form when merging these worlds. I tend to ramble so I don’t necessarily trust myself to give some details but not enough for others to connect any dots. I fear that I’m going to end up lying somehow, and dishonesty is so abhorrent to me at the moment. I’m being honest with myself like never before; it goes against my new rules of life.
I blame this post-Puritan, American culture. Sexual freedom is a big no-no here. How are we to control the people if they understand their bodies? A lot of us lack the words to express these things and even fewer of us have the bravery. I’ve only had a little time to adjust myself to this world but already I’m bracing myself for public rejection. I think I can handle the conversation but not the idea that my people will pull away.
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