If you are a long-time reader of my blog, you are familiar with my life, successes, and failures. When I became my wife's long-term solo caregiver in 2017, it didn't take long for her to become asexual. I tried many ways to have a lover, all but one attempt failed, and it ended too soon.
What did I learned about BDSM?
At best, I am a switch and was duped into a scam that supposedly trained me to be a master for a price (money). I have always had a kinky side, and both my wife and I were fond of sex. I still am if I only had a lover. My wife, when she was well, was undoubtedly submissive, yet taught me things I was not aware of.
My new plan? I have to pay for an aide to watch my wife so she can stay safe while I attend the senior citizen center organization in town, maybe twice a month. Why? I have no social life, and perhaps I will meet a woman whom I like, and she will like me too. All my online acquaintances proved to be fake. I believe some deception, and the longer I chat with them, the more money I have to spend to continue. They claim they need and want a lover, but never even visit for a chat on my porch.
Having a libido at 78 for me is a curse, not a blessing. pixabay.com
