Hello Friends,
My mood swings are under control now that doctors identified that I was bipolar under new guidelines: I knew it for a long time. Up everyone loves you and you are a great achiever down suddenly they say too bad you are depressed. Anti-depressants helped with the blues but not the ups. I am a creative person and most people just said,' "He's one of those creative types; A temperamental artist musician." That much was true I achieved a lot in arts and science but the downside is keeping it going. Short projects like poetry, songs, and paintings first well with moodiness but I have many longer works (manuscripts) left unfinished. Relationships? My wife was a doll she understood me like no one else. Alas, that was before her brain disease, and now the only thing of her for me that remains? A hug, a kiss, and a laugh when I am joking (sometimes at my corny sense of humor).
Will I ever find someone to love me like that again? Probably not. I still can hope but the odds are not in my favor I fear.