Hello Friends,
Some days I wake up, and it is quiet. Then I start to think too much. I realize the circumstances I am living within and wonder how I got here. I know once my day of caregiving begins I won't have the luxury to think about many things engage and do what needs to be done. It is during moments like these I miss having a close companion. It seems none of the various plans have solved my problem. I even wonder if there is an actual solution.
When my wife and I were married thirty-nine years ago, we were recovering from a divorce and were single parents, each with a daughter and a son. We proceeded to create a blended family, and when we had time for ourselves, some echoes of our past emerged more for me than she. My lingering emotional damage from my second wife was a source of trouble until several years passed. So today as my wife is afflicted with her brain disease robbing us of our relationship I have questions about my future.
Is it right to meet a new woman and ask her to be my companion as this slow mourning of my loss continues? Could she and I have a companionship at all? Is it just feeling lonely enough of a reason to seek a companion? I have no answers only questions and only the void I dwell within when quiet time greets me.
