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The Culture that has been here all the time

When I studied to acquire my Master's status I discovered the M/S relationship existed probably for all the history of humans. Religion and Western Culture distort this greatly. Using codes and euphemisms even denial masks it presents the fact many people thrive within this often unrecognized subculture. For example, my wife had all the earmarks of a pleasure slave and was generally devoted and submissive to me. In times of marriage friction, I often heard the words from a counselor, "She just wants you to love her" "Love her" I thought I was and did now I know without a doubt I need to be a master, not some preconceived idea we are to live as equals.

I Now Know

10 months ago. May 26, 2024 at 4:23 PM

Friends, I now know who or what I am: I am strictly a caregiver for my wife. I am neither a Dom nor a Sub, just a blank* with my job to do as something almost like a male nurse.

Fun and happiness are not in my vocabulary. I have no activities that give me respite. A little TV, a plant or two, some music, and a little time with my pets have value, but that is all.

Each day, I live in the past and see nothing in my future.

Acceptance has taken a long time, with harsh lessons learned along the way.

I will look into a form of senior housing on Tuesday where I can move with my wife on one floor and a minimum of house and yard work. During the VA Share Group meeting, I heard fellow caregivers refer to a VA option for housing (I'll see).

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The Culture that has been here all the time

I Now Know

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