Friends,
There is no easy cure for loneliness when your social life is crippled. Negative experience breeds at least some misanthropy, and some misanthropy leads to isolation. Online chats can not break isolation; the only safe solution is withdrawing into a shell. The shell is a comfort zone for me. I know I will probably remain in this state even when my wife passes. Perhaps until I reach my end. It is not hopeless because hopelessness implies there is some remnant of hope (less hope). I am now totally without hope.
I do not like to say I will never talk about anything good or bad, but I have no intention of looking for someone, family, or friends to trust truly. Trust is now past tense. I once trusted too quickly. I used to trust, but now I can not allow myself that luxury.
Don't cry for me. I am in my comfort zone and glad that I am.
