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The Culture that has been here all the time

When I studied to acquire my Master's status I discovered the M/S relationship existed probably for all the history of humans. Religion and Western Culture distort this greatly. Using codes and euphemisms even denial masks it presents the fact many people thrive within this often unrecognized subculture. For example, my wife had all the earmarks of a pleasure slave and was generally devoted and submissive to me. In times of marriage friction, I often heard the words from a counselor, "She just wants you to love her" "Love her" I thought I was and did now I know without a doubt I need to be a master, not some preconceived idea we are to live as equals.

We All Have Some Damage from What Life has Done to us

2 months ago. December 22, 2024 at 9:21 PM

I don't think everything in life can be made good again. I doubt that I will ever be happy again. I have experienced too much loss. If Jeanne had died in 2017, I probably would have a new life with a new woman. If I were in prison since then, I would be eager to start again. Watching Jeanne passing slowly by myself (the long goodbye) has really damaged me I fear.
I know you tell me to be positive.
I met a woman who survived the Holocaust in Natzi, Germany. She was polite and cared for my friend, her son, but I never saw her smile - not even once. My experience with Jeanne has lasted longer than that woman's time in a concentration camp, so what would I be like?

No, I can survive as she had, but I do not think I will ever be happy again.

Cello Trance{for You} - Blessings to you my friend.

2 months ago

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The Culture that has been here all the time

We All Have Some Damage from What Life has Done to us

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