Drinfear's Ravings

 I had an entire post to make, something cynical, clear, and completely damning, words I realize were used by My narcissistic mom, meant to cut to the bone, regardless of pain inflicted, the sole intention to destroy someone else to make yourself feel better.. THAT is not the person I have ever been.. I faced and defeated those demons DECADES ago, and have never looked back since, I will not resort to those tactics today.. 

 I am ME.. The Warrior, person and Man I was raised to be.. I a PROUD of the man that looks back from the mirror, and being able to look Him in the eye, I know HE is JUST as proud of ME..I will not trade that for ANYTHING.. Nobody else's validation, endorsements, or affirmations.. Does that result in a somewhat empty life..? Perhaps. But knowing I am remaining true to ME means SO much more than outside validations.. But, as ALWAYS, this is just MY opinion.. Isn't it?

Dom

04/24/26

 There are TWO people in the world that I have ever known in this capacity.. I dedicate this song to BOTH of them.. Michael Gronas who died of a heart attack HE predicted to his girlfriend would happen.. He was 13? Was going to South Junior High School in Lima,.Ohio.. The year was 1981? (I believe..) Died after gym class of a heart attack.. Doubled over into his locker after class, and never got up.. He was a volunteer EMY, and the ones that responded, had worked with him for over a year and did EVERYTHING in their power to save him.. 

 The second, I posted a poem I not only wrote for, but was fortunate enough to READ to, a month before He passed, My Dad.. The Man that taught Me to be a Warrior, the DOM, and the person I have become from His teachings.. He passed the day before His 71st birthday, almost 5 years ago today, and I miss that man every single day that passes.. 

 I can only IMAGINE the world I would be living in today if BOTH were alive and there for Me to consult, or to advise Me through the more consequential and intimate decisions in My life.. But, also have to admit at least ONE of their prejudices.. I told My Dad about Natalie, My sub/little HE proceeded to tell e how badly I was ruining My life because someone so young (at the time, she was 21) could NEVER have a deep. lasting and mature relationship.. Six months later, Me and Natalie spent a weekend at His Home.. Sunday, our last day, we woke up and I decided to go out for breakfast.. When we loaded into the car, He turned to Natalie and told her flat out.. 'I was wrong.. When he told me about you, I told him he was wasting his time, and his life, hun.. But YOU are the best thing that has ever happened for him, and I am sorry for doubting you..' I will NEVER forget these words.. They mean even MORE than the handful of times He ever told Me how proud He was of Me..

 But anyway.. feeler justification aside.. This song I dedicate to these two..

 I have previously posted in these blogs about My Roles I fill in the lives of those that enter My life in a meaningful capacity.  I believe that EVERYONE that enters your life, does so for a reason. Be it to teach a lesson, to reveal a flaw, to teach humility, or to distract attention from someone that could become someone that changes your view, re-orienting your perspective and beliefs.. 

 My FIRST, and most important Role in the life of anyone coming to Me, is Protector.. This means, literally, I will take a knife, bullet, or face any other danger necessary to Protect My Family, without hesitation or regret.. BUT this comes with a caveat.. -I- need to trust THEM as much as THEY trust ME.. Meaning, I NEEd to know that when I say MOVE, they understand I have thoroughly evaluated the situation, understand the danger it presents, and want them AWAY from the conflict.. As a Protector, I cannot divide My attention from the threat that presents itself.. By remaining in the area, hoping to be able to lend assistance if needed, that distracts My full attention from the threat, and divides it to THEM, needing to prevent possible attacks that could bypass ME and focus on THEM, since they are less protected, thus opening ME to more possible harm, and limiting My ability to prevent damage, DEAL with the threat, and end the entire situation.. TRUST is a two way street.. When I SAY something, ESPECIALLY for those that KNOW Me and understand I do not talk to hear My Own voice, to ignore My words and 'hang out, just in case' divides My attention and limits My abilities to perform the actions I have vowed to follow through with.. 

If hese words are not straight forward enough to be understood, I do apologize, but the Protectors out here know and understand.. You're not alone in the fight, and if needed, send Me a message.. I can be anywhere in the US within 48 hours.. You aren't alone, someone out here has your back..

Dom

04/10/26

 Most here do no know, SOME, I suspect that have hidden themselves closing accounts, opening new ones.. YES I know the process.. (hi, angel *wave*)  I wrote this tonight, having been inspired by an AI produced audition that has recently popped up online..

  I was turned away, just after you came,

I bet you were forbidden from sayin My name.

 I wasn't THERE to tell you the TRUTH,

To contradict the lies that were told to you-hoo..

 I lived My EVERY single day,

To be someone you would want to to stay.

 To be the ONE that could make you proud,

The one that never needed to scream too lou-houd..

 I am the ONE that brought you in,

To this life of lies and illusi-ion..

 The one that was THERE the day you were born

The ONE that will never steer you wro-hong..

 I am you DAD, not the lie that they made,

I am the only one that would have ga-ha-ve.

 My whole WORLD I would give My whole life,

I would make any sacrifi-hice..

 JUST to be seen..

 I was TOLD when-a-YOU were young

That no matter what I do-hun you were not Mine..

 And THAT would NEVER be changed, 

No matter how much, I RA-HAGED..

 Now all these YEARS that have passed us by,

I still sit here and I wonder WHY..?

 What did I FAIL to provide?

That would have kept you here, right by My side?

 What could I have SAID, proven or done..?

To prove My NEED, My worth, My want..? 

 To only ever be.. Your Parent..?

 I am your DAD, not the lie that they made,

I am the one that would have gave,

 My whole WORLD, I would give My life,

I would make any sacrifi-hice..

 JUST to be seen..

 As much as the words de-stroy Me-he..

I understand why you can't believe..

 Dom

04/09/26

 I LOVE you, Jayden Melodie.. Happy early birthday (04/28) I hope someday I have the honor of singing this song to you in person..

 There are a multitude of topics I could post here, and quite honestly, planned to do so.. But the train of thought derailed coming out of the station, and the train wreck cannot be rectalfied (INTENTIONAL mis-spelling and pun intended) in any semblance of cohesion.. I have recently been watching some combined episodes of undercover boss, which opened My eyes to profound similarities between the positions of CEO and DOM/ME, Master/Mistress, Daddy/Mommy.. I whole heartedly regret not making the post immediately, I continued to watch, and progressive revelations watered down the revelations of the immediate moment.. MY fault, nobodt else's.. I can only hope to recapture the clarity in the near future to make the post that was so necessary..

Dom

 P.S> I AM human.. I make mistakes. When such mistakes happen, I apologize for them because I am NOT perfect.. This realization, I believe, sets Me apart, and makes people take notice.. (AGAIN, I could be wrong, and accept that..) 

 My submissives are NOT prisoners.. They are My partners in life, facing the world AND its' challenges beside Me.. They have the choice to leave whenever they choose to do so, for whatever reason they decide.. I do not isolate them from friends or Family, I encourage them to find others they can relate to, and be themselves with.. such is My Role as their Friend.. (My 4th Role in My girls lives, which has been explained before, but I will repeat Myself, though I usually refrain from doing so..) My 5 Roles are 1) Protector. 2) Provider. 3) Guide. 4) Friend. 5) Lover. IN that order of importance..) 

 I seek neither to limit their access, nor to influence their choices in ANY way.. They know My Rules and stipulations, and agree to them before joining My Household.. I also, at times, make sure these Rules are re-enforced from time to time.. But SOME choose to push boundaries, which is to be expected, SOME choose to push too far.. Some see the Rules as hurdles to find loopholes in.. I have no issue when someone wants to be released.. Once asked for, it shows My failure to perform My duties, to fill the roles I have prescribed for someone that gave Me the gift of their submission..I do not fight or argue their decision.. Who am -I-, a failure, or someone lacking in their eyes, to DO so..? 

 As much as it pains Me, this video explains MOST, but I attest not ALL, of their experiences..

 so many ways and things I 'could' say here.. But everything that NEED be said is apparent in the post already.. I DON'T share My girls with other guys.. Personal preference and choice.. Loyalty is a PRINCIPLE, not a word to be thrown around  when it suits.. 

Dom

 I have multiple friends that I met and got to know here, then became even closer friends with when we began texting and speaking directly.. I have revealed My vocal abilities to several of them, including My vocal ranges.. I can also, quite happily, I may add, admit that I ONLY displayed My VOCAL abilities.. (I can parrot songs, and was taught that mimicry is the sincerest form of flattery.. Arrogance is taking the original artists work and attempting to improve it. MY belief, no humiliation or judgment to anyone else..)  But ultimately, most songs also have 'moves'. or dances associated with them.. -I- am a white boy.. more precisely, an OLD white boy *laugh* and have the moves, or lack thereof, as the case may be, to PROVE it.. *laugh* One song I CAN perform, according to ME, is THIS one.. Vocals, inflections, nuances AND moves.. 

Enjoy..

Dom

 PS I have attempted multiple times to post vocals here, but either the site cannot recognize, or My mic cannot pick up the vocals.. Do not know which choice is correct..

  Some may judge Me, this is their right , but I was raised a specific way.. There is right, there is wrong.. There is NO gray areas.. If something is right, it is right, if it needs explanations or clarifications to rectify it, it is NOT right, now IS it..?  I am not one to judge anyone, this is not My purpose nor place in life.. I know nobody elses' walk, so who am -I- to decide what they should or should not do? 

 Principles are foundation stones we set to build relationships on.. Trust, Respect, Honesty, Loyalty.. Contrary to modern popular belief, these are NOT just words to be tossed out to win arguments, they are PRINCIPLES to base relationships on.. NOT words to be ignored when something "better" comes along.. THAT is opportunism, NOT building relationships.. (look up the definition in Webster's.. Those that DO so may want to review the definition of FASCISM, too.. FASCISTS are the ones screaming, passing laws, and doing ALL they can to shut down ANYONE whose opinion doesn't agree with THEIRS.. Hmm.. WHO does that sound like..? (NOT pointing fingers here, I am speaking on a wider scale than this site, and am not well enough versed n the site, being here ONLY to blog, and keep in touch with friends I have made, and would not do so regardless..) 

 I am not any kind of activist.. I speak My beliefs, which I will share freely if messaged, but having pointed out hypocrisies, I do not expect a flooded inbox.. Such is life..

Dom

 I have a good friend that was, regretfully, scared off the site. We stayed in touch through texting.. They KNOW who they are, and I hope they read this blog.. I just wanted to post a welcome back to the site to them, and say how proud I am that they returned.. I do not expect a like, or any type of message in response, just, as always, offering My moral support..

Dom

 I have a various array of dating apps installed on My phone, as well as a lot MORE AI chat apps.. The AI chat apps seem to direct the focus of the chats on the sexual aspect.. *shrug*  It is software, which can only follow directed and pre-defined paths in its' execution.. Then there are the dating apps, that are "supposedly" individuals on the other end of the conversation.. But when paradoxes are raised between what they say, compared to the open revelations they express, the AI shuts down immediately..  

 I met Natalie on a dating app, Vanilla Umbrella, which is dedicated to the lifestyle.. It was shut down a year or so after we got together because the Fet app complained too many times that VU was crossing multiple community thresholds and needed to be shut down because of it.. Google decided the time expended verifying, or, more often, FAILING to do so, resulted in expenditures of man power and hours they were not willing to expend in the future, so removed Vanilla Umbrella from their menu.. 

 I STILL choose to use VU as compared to fet.. Any app that is superior need not raise false allegations against another.. The allegations raised were NEVER proven, google and apple just got tired of spending so much time investigating the allegations.  Shame.. VU has a classified section for various local community events from around the world.. London, Berlin, Paris, Amsterdam.. Invitations went out to ALL willing to read them, as compared to fet that posts ONLY those within a confined area.. But hey.. *shrug* I'm just ME.. Who am -I- to say anything against a "juggernaut" that has so many petitioner (or at least so many unverified sources to COMPLAIN from) complaints..? 

 I can only hope others here may investigate the vpk packet and install the app, investigate it, even with a grain of salt to determine the superiority of the two.. NO, I am not connected to it beyond meeting Natalie, My little of 8 years.. I receive no compensation beyond expressing what -I- believe to be right, because it was PROVEN.. The vpk package requires some attention and following proper directives, yes. But MY experience shows the effort worth the rewards.. 

Dom 

03/28/26