As Another has said, One Whom I respect.. WARNING!! SAD POST.. Faint hearted should not read!
I have only been here a short time, this is true. I have not spoken to many, but have a way to go to show some here the Man I am, and the fires I have been tempered by, the Darkness I have walked through to become the Warrior, and the Man that stands before you all here now.
I am NOT, at present, a Premium member, though I hope this to be rectified sometime in the near future.
Back before My introduction to the Lifestyle, in My (not really so) 'vanilla days', I met, fell in love with and married a woman. (This was 1990) She gave Me a son several months later. I left, through no choice of My Own (I get enough judgement as is for being new, I will not add fuel to the public fire, but for any interested will explain in private. I am not proud, but nor will I hide from the Truth) I left. When My son was 7 months old, as his mom was bringing him Home from the grocery store, a drunk driver ran a red light and took them both. This person never even bothered to stop.
*I*, being gone, did not even find out about the situation until the following year. This discovery devastated Me. I spent almost 3 years at the bottom of a bottle, until coming to terms with the situation. Even after nearly 33 years, I find Myself living day by day, one step at a time. I have never written any verse or rhyme on this topic, though at some point I MIGHT. But here in the last 3 months or so, while bingeing some former episodes, I came across this unassuming younger man, striking in His commonality that performed a song He had written and sang on America's Got Talent. His name is Mitch Rossell. He wrote a song that opened My eyes, and to be honest, My HEART, because He wrote it from the perspective of the Son whose Dad was taken..
I can't post videos here yet, but the song is That's Why I Call You Son. I hope others coming through the same Darkness *I* have can hear this song (the AGT version is perfect, but the Official video is SO much more) and experience the same calmness, yet inescapable rage, it brings to Me.. This song, though very emotional, is balancing TO ME. I hope others may find the same through His music..
Dom
