I WANTED to write something here that was cerebral and thought provoking.. I settled for one of the most profound incidents in My life.. A new revelation to MOST here, about the myriad of incidents and decisions that have created this Warrior that stands before Y/you, and awaits Y/your judgement/antipathy.. I have already shown, I do not try to hide from My mistakes, nor do I use them as excuses for being the Warrior/Man/DOM I am today.. They're not excuses to be Me, they're the REASON I am this Person, and quite honestly, I'm extremely proud of the Man that looks back at Me from the mirror every day.. But that's neither here nor there..
My VERY first memory of life was looking up as My 'mom' (and YES, I use that term loosely by design) picked up a 4 pound peanut butter jar and heaved it at My head.. I was 3. I SAW it coming and ducked, only to have it shatter against the wall behind Me.. I spun around only to catch the majority of it ricochet into My face, which left Me deeply scarred on My right cheek which is still visible to this day (52 years later).. this was the FIRST of 4 attempts this woman made trying to take My life.. The LAST attempt in Oct 1974, this woman actually KILLED My Dad by running Him over as He was driving 60 on His motorcycle.. HE was pronounced dead at the scene, and over an hour later, in the hospital, IN the morgue, IN a body bag, as they were pushing Him into a drawer to await autopsy, He spontaneously revived and sat up.. (scaring the Coroner on Duty so badly He walked out and never went back.. )
This is just a few more of aforementioned incidents and decisions that have compounded to forge Me into this being I am snd continue to evolve into being. Like most people, I only seek to be the best version of ME that I can be, I KNOW this takes growth and accepting lessons in life as the learning experience they are meant to be, thus continuing to open My eyes and grow ever better. I have had some hardships in My life, living through these, too, has forged My body into something I fail to recognize at times, as compared to the days of My youth when I was far more mobile and able to use the abilities I have learned over the years.. Running is not the least of the things this crippled old Monster's body can no longer do.. Enter the Flitter.. She is sooo much a force of Nature. She wants what is best for Me, AND the Family, and she pushes Me to follow through at times when previously, I would have let My pain and apathy prevent Me from taking another step.. It almost feels as if I was withering away letting My body deteriorate a little at a time, and with all that has transpired in My life over the past 3 years, had accepted the Fate I saw coming for Me, and in all honesty, had let Myself create.
I have made appointments, and continue to do so with Flitter's help and pressure. She stands behind Me, with PrincessFlitterP, pushing Me ever on, through the pain, pushing Me to get ever closer to the Man I remember Myself being.. During all this time of Trials and Tribulations, I never allowed My duties to My Family falter or go unfulfilled, I only let Myself be distracted from things I needed to do to fix ME. I believe THIS is why God has brought Flitter into O/our lives, and I can only give thanks to the Powers That Be for doing so..
I started this experience almost a month ago.. FAR before Flitter entered the Home.. But finished it tonight, 3/03/2024 to show the impact this woman has had in My life after JUST 3 weeks together..
