Fuck.
I just wanted to be loved.
I just wanted it to be real.
Everything feels so wrong.
Everything feels worse.
Everything hurts.
You led me to believe.
You gained my trust.
You put ideas in my head that I'm forced to relive until I can forget.
You hurt me.
I want to scream.
I want to cry.
I want pain but not this kind.
I want to scream at you.
I want to hurt you for hurting me.
Tonight I will rebel
Tonight I will throw a tantrum.
Tonight I will be mad.
Tonight I will not forgive.
Tonight I will have fun
Tonight I will get drunk
I am going to be reckless.
I am going to do things I know you wont approve.
But really...
I guess i should thank you.
For showing me, that I shouldn't believe.
For showing me again not to trust.
At least it was good while it lasted.
Kept in the dark.
I do not want to be.
Kept a secret.
Is not for me.
Kept on a line.
Never to meet.
Broken trust.
Broken dreams.
You meant so much to me.
Now its gone.
Away for good.
The drinks are flowing.
The weed smells good.
I know if you saw.
I would hear you say your disappointed.
I would reply good because so am I.
You would shake your head.
And I would walk away.
Because that's all that's left.
I cannot give to you anymore.
Goodbye.
