First started in kink during my Army tour in Germany. Now, I've officially been a civilian for a year. Got the house (no roommates or pets), car, business, and Harley. I guess a part of me thought a submissive would appear from the depths of my accomplishments. Wishful thinking, but you never know.
I went back over the advice of all my mentors about "getting/being ready," preparing for the future, staying open to new possibilities, while solidifying my foundation to support and guide. They were talking about marriage, I was talking about my romantic life in general.
I completed all my milestones and am now focusing my time on BDSM. Weird time, I know. I set this plan in motion when I realized that time was the only thing people wasted, complained about not having, then stole from others without any consideration. So instead of a backhanded dive into distractions, I decided to sit down with this. Reached out to friends, went online, had Tinder, browsed the Cage. Had some fun and a couple of good runs, and I'm choosing not to go down the negative thought route. I am looking for who is going to be mine.
I have my shit together...is what I tell myself to just get through. I focus on the basics and proper breathing. I worked my way up from nothing and I want a woman who likes, appreciates, and supports that part of me, in and out of the bedroom. I will do the same in kind.
Not for a night before you run back to your ex. Not for a week before your schedule gets "crazy." If your life is in shambles, stay away from me. I have learned that if someone's life circumstances are inconsistent, most likely, so are they.
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If you're reading this, and you're a submissive with her shit together, good posture, and takes care of herself...I'm waiting for you. I have prepared, waited patiently, given freely, learned from my past experiences, and have the time + space to train and guide the perfect sub for me.
I will not judge you for your past or flaws. I will call you on your shit. I will not be a scapegoat, extra wallet, or emotional whipping post.
I will care for you during and after scenes. I will not accept inconsistency or illegal activity.
I am aiming for a dynamic where we both have our goals/careers/travel plans aligned. This will eventually lead to a 24/7 dynamic.
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While some may say the wait is unbearable. Just accept some of you may die alone. Especially if you're being lazy about your search and self-care.
I'm enjoying the quiet, but not the isolation. I'm over my phases of being on the hunt. I am actively searching for her. Hell, you may even know someone.
I want some coffee and then I'll hit the gym.
Have a good day.