Last I posted anything it was about my ex cheating and not wanting to Dom me anymore, well alot has happened since then.
He became mentally/verbally abusive, at the time I last posted it had already started but I didn't see it then. It took me a long time to realize it wasn't my fault and I didn't deserve it, and I'm still struggling with it every so often.
He wasn't physically abusive but I was scared, he would throw things, break things, and a few times left bruises on my arms from grabbing my arm to stop me from walking away.
Eventually I said we were done, and I started talking with a great group of friends that I will forever thank, they were super supportive and helped me gain the courage to get my own apartment.
The divorce took about a year and honestly was fine, only hard part was our son but we'll figure it out as time goes on.
During that year my friends helped me heal, some teaching me to stand up for myself and some teaching me how I should've been treated and w realize what I truly deserve from someone. I gained friends became extroverted somewhat and got close with me friends. Shared my demons with them and they shared theirs with me.
One of those friends, online name being Immortal, confessed that he liked me towards the end of my divorce, that he always had after we got close but never thought I'd like him too, but I did.
We waited till I was divorced and started dating, we were so close and he was already one of my best friends so it was easy. Had to learn a different side of him but it came naturally.
He's been nervous to do bdsm things in person, he doesn't have a lot of experience with bdsm irl and not just online, so we're taking that side of our relationship slowly, trying things out when he feels comfortable but we've already made alot of progress.
Plus he recently collared me!!! Which has made him allllllooooottt more confident and comfortable with our kinky side of the relationship. And more willing to try new things out with me and not be afraid of it not working out or having his ideas rejected, which I never would've before but this is more of a physical proof of it lol
My love was and is my best friend, then became my love and my partner, and now finally I can proudly say , he's my Sir❤️❤️❤️
