daily life apart from bdsm

well I have been in New Hampshire for almost 3 months I like but I would like it better if I had a place to stay long term so if I can't find a place to stay in June i'll be going back to upstate new York because this sucks but it is what it is I'm hoping something comes along but if it doesn't I'll just deal with what I have I'm hoping I have money soon but we will see it sucks I can't work but i've been told if I push my body it won't be good so I will do what I can at this point I am willing to move anywhere in the united states but I am looking to see what states are cheaper I am hoping to find something soon 

well I have been staying in Nashua New Hampshire or a couple months and after the first month my mom decided not to help me until I get paid anymore but it is what it is so I am trying to get by until I get paid I am hoping I hear something from SSI soon so that way I know I can do something quicker or hopefully move on my own with my son I am hoping I can actually meet someone that I can connect with 

my son told he don't want to stay with Grama and grumpy anymore but I told him I have been looking for another place to stay or rent I agree with him that broke my heart when he said that this morning right before school I have been trying my hardest to look for another place for the last month I feel like I am failing my son but I know i'm not it is just hard right now honestly I don't know what to do at this point I feel like crying bc i've been looking and i'm not getting anywhere I am so tired but i'm not giving up just going to be trying my hardest to find a place

Well I have been living in New Hampshire for 2 months and I haven't found a place to permanently live yet but I am still looking for a place i am waiting for a doctor's appointment to see if I can work i am hoping I get good news if not it will be what it is I am hoping that I will also will find someone close to me 

My son and I have been in New Hampshire for a month I have applied to all the housing programs I have only heard from one and I had a interview last week hopefully getting into the program all the way 

Monday my son get registered for school

Hopefully he will be in school Wednesday 

Then I will be able to do a lot more during the day 

Looking for jobs 

Looking into adult education program

Also looking for jobs training 

well finally made it to New Hampshire 

we have a lot to do still but that is making our life better 

a lot to do monday

well right now I am staying in a shelter/hotel in Syracuse until I can get bus tickets 

I really hating when people say they will help me out and then bail out I feel like crying because I don't want to be in a situation like this but I am it sucks but I am making the best of this situation 

I wish I had the support and help but people like to screw people over 

well instead of waiting to leave in October I am leaving next week 

my son is so excited 

getting away from fake friends 

well I was staying with someone who I though who was a friend but all she did was talk behind my back 

I hate when people do that some people are fake on the surface and underneath

I am now someone that I can definitely trust 

my son and I are safe 

I am definitely proud to be going through and still pushing through and have not had a break down 

I can't wait until we can move  

well that relationship worked out for a couple months until my girlfriends mom wanted me out 

I got kicked out with my son 

I called my only other friend in Syracuse and asked if I could stay until the end of October 

trying to figure out what I am going to do 

waiting for the school to set up the bus for my son 

i am trying to figure out what I am going to do 

tried to talk to my family but got nowhere with that 

so I am trying to start all over again 

but it is what it is 

I am taking it day by day 

just trying to make sure my son is safe and sound 

when I left that house I could only take half of my stuff 

so tomorrow calling for a police escort to get the rest of my stuff 

i'm hoping I will be able to get my own place or move closer to my mom 

but we will see what happens 

hoping my life gets a little better