daily life apart from bdsm

Well I'm back in upstate NY and settled at my dad's house now just trying to find an at home job 

well I am going to stay with my dad I am getting picked up in New Hampshire on the 7th I am so excited and hopefully a better environment and safer and have our own rooms 

well still in New Hampshire now trying to go back to upstate new York but trying to borrow money from family or friends so I can pay someone to come get myself and my son and our 2 suitcases 5 regular bags a laundry basket and a small box I have found a ride but now trying to gather the money to leave this sucks bc my son doesn't want to stay here anymore because my mom and her boyfriend are tell my son to stop making noises grrrrrr just trying to deal with this until I can borrow money  

well I have been in New Hampshire for almost 3 months I like but I would like it better if I had a place to stay long term so if I can't find a place to stay in June i'll be going back to upstate new York because this sucks but it is what it is I'm hoping something comes along but if it doesn't I'll just deal with what I have I'm hoping I have money soon but we will see it sucks I can't work but i've been told if I push my body it won't be good so I will do what I can at this point I am willing to move anywhere in the united states but I am looking to see what states are cheaper I am hoping to find something soon 

well I have been staying in Nashua New Hampshire or a couple months and after the first month my mom decided not to help me until I get paid anymore but it is what it is so I am trying to get by until I get paid I am hoping I hear something from SSI soon so that way I know I can do something quicker or hopefully move on my own with my son I am hoping I can actually meet someone that I can connect with 

my son told he don't want to stay with Grama and grumpy anymore but I told him I have been looking for another place to stay or rent I agree with him that broke my heart when he said that this morning right before school I have been trying my hardest to look for another place for the last month I feel like I am failing my son but I know i'm not it is just hard right now honestly I don't know what to do at this point I feel like crying bc i've been looking and i'm not getting anywhere I am so tired but i'm not giving up just going to be trying my hardest to find a place

Well I have been living in New Hampshire for 2 months and I haven't found a place to permanently live yet but I am still looking for a place i am waiting for a doctor's appointment to see if I can work i am hoping I get good news if not it will be what it is I am hoping that I will also will find someone close to me 

My son and I have been in New Hampshire for a month I have applied to all the housing programs I have only heard from one and I had a interview last week hopefully getting into the program all the way 

Monday my son get registered for school

Hopefully he will be in school Wednesday 

Then I will be able to do a lot more during the day 

Looking for jobs 

Looking into adult education program

Also looking for jobs training 

well finally made it to New Hampshire 

we have a lot to do still but that is making our life better 

a lot to do monday

well right now I am staying in a shelter/hotel in Syracuse until I can get bus tickets 

I really hating when people say they will help me out and then bail out I feel like crying because I don't want to be in a situation like this but I am it sucks but I am making the best of this situation 

I wish I had the support and help but people like to screw people over