Burn ?

Connections can mean so many things
But when you're lost or don't use your wings
That leap gets further and further away
Just be honest and say
What you really want
Be open go on words can flaunt 
Will they hear me
Will they understand thee
As time goes on my heart opens
And yet I don't know why 
Internally I feel like I'm gonna cry
Do I put my guard back up
What the fuck I knew it yup
The potential was there 
Do I dare
Chance it again 
I know what I want but when
Was this a mistake 
To try something I know I can take
My desire, will and need is strong
But I can't find someone where I belong
Am I to just be crushed over and over
What the fuck sir
This obviously wasn't meant for us
Something said seemed a little sus
I knew I should have listened 
But my 6th sense wasn't loud enough she just glistened
Why did I not stop her
Oh because she wanted to wonder
How she could get those lips
Or just the tips
Big whoopee doesn't matter now
Since that's all he care about wow
Soon fingers crossed it will work
Shit I'm in the middle of freeway with twerk
No just kidding but maybe I should
Or just don't give my whole self like I would
Try again be free
But the thought was it was a we
Get over it God dammit
You can't just plan it
Although to be fair I didn't start it
A simple question turned into a whole bit
Makes perfect sense 
I can feel my neck tense
Lust only goes so far
Here's to another scar
Just because I long for the touch
I don't need to give up so much
Push forward keep trying 
Don't settle from your needing
This last year I've grown so 
I'm not just going to sit around and not know
The longer I wait 
I'm losing out on fate
The air is clear
I'm not going to live in fear
The thoughts take My mind
Sometimes I'm in a bind
A feeling I wish to feel
Shit can I find someone real 
My vagina has a fuse ready to burn
Fuck God give me a break and a turn