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Under The Whip

A place where a humble blind service submissive can calm her mind and clear out the corners with her thoughts, opinions, stories, experiences, and tribulations.
1 month ago. December 23, 2024 at 8:27 PM

Christmas lights are one of my favorite things of the season. Between that, snow and a REAL tree that smells delicious. Throw in a cinnamon candle on top of it and goodness it is heaven for me.

 

 

I don't know what it is but there is a bit of peace for me to sit there all the lights in the house off. My one candle going, the lights on my tree glittering in the window as it snows behind it outside. Me curled up in a fuzzy blanket with a hot cup of peppermint hot chocolate. It calms my mind and brings me some inner peace.

 

 

Becoming blind has made a lot of things really difficult for me. I can only see five percent out of my left eye. So seeing things is near impossible. However one thing I can really see, and see very well are colorful lights. So despite me not really loving this time of year or the commercialism in it all the one thing I do look forward to seeing is ALL of the lights. Even if I cannot see them one hundred percent clearly I can get a feel for what they all make out. Pair that with music and it creates something very emotional for me.

 

 

I honestly do not care how cliche it is to get into your car with your family and drive around to look at all the lights. That was still something I enjoyed doing when we were able to do so as a family growing up. However the best time was Christmas Eve, with my Mema. She and I after all the gifts were under the tree would have Christmas music playing on low,, and would just curl up on the sofa and drink our cocoa as we watch the lights on the tree. That for me has become tradition. Even though the majority of the time I do this now alone since se passed away twenty years ago.

 

 

This year it is going to be pretty hard on me. We have decided not to decorate at all. With all the stress we are going through taking care of family members who are ill and just trying to get by day to day, I will not have a tree here to do that with. However that is NOT going to stop me. My masters keep this tradition alive for me now so we will have our hot chocolate and I will have peppermint in it. I can always pull up a video on youtube and listen to music and stare at a Christmas tree on screen, OR I can remain in good spirits and this year we can do our cocoa with a Christmas movie.

 


Violent Nights
Krampus
Red One
Some animated Christmas movie.
The Christmas movie, Die Hard

 



I do not know which one we will pick if we opt to do that. Still I have options and honestly I am not sure how I feel not having the proper tradition I usually do. This year has sucked so hard for my family and I, and I am sure for many people everywhere. Still we have taken some new steps forward with our new defined TPE and everything. So as we embark on a newer journey I think it is a good thing to remain optimistic and I think just enjoying the tradition differently this year does not make it a bad thing.

 

 

I am going to remain in good spirits on Christmas Eve. I am going to get my hot chocolate. I will have peppermint in it. My Mema will be there in spirit and I will spend the evening offline with my masters and we will just exist and be happy.

 

 

So please enjoy these moments. Remember just because a tradition has to change for a small time does not make it bad. Live in the moment and just be as cheerful as you can be. For me it is the simple things this year.


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