"There are a hundred ways to kneel and kiss the ground.” – Rumi
This quote strikes home for me and so hard. I honestly feel that this should be one of the first lessons every submissive should learn. It would save so many heartaches, and headaches for many a submissive in my opinion.
I remember how I felt after I broke my knee back in 2010. It was so difficult to kneel at all. I tore my ACL, me Meniscus, snapped a tendon and now have permanent nerve damage. This is the same leg that I have broken in three places as a child. I have broken this ankle a dozen times. It has been extremely difficult prior to breaking my knee to kneel and now its almost damn near impossible.
Then you cut forward many years and I broke my back in two places from work. My upper left shoulder muscle was torn completely away from my spine. I also herniated a disc in my lower back, so now bending over, walking, kneeling, sitting and even laying down is difficult. I am constantly changing positions, and just dealing with pain.
When I got with Damon I was able to kneel even if it was difficult. I broke my back about six months into our dynamic and relationship. He was there with me through all of it. He never forced me to kneel after I was seriously injured. In fact we changed our entire dynamic because I was in so much pain and agony. To this day I still am but I am living with it.
This had affected my mental health so much. I had lost my way for a very long time. I lost my feeling of being a submissive/slave. I for whatever reason resonated that if I could not kneel before my master then I was less of a submissive. That I in fact just was NOT a submissive. To this day I don't understand why this stuck to me so heavily.
It took much reassurance from my master Damon to get me out of this state. I know deep down not kneeling does not define my submission. Hell not wearing a collar does not make me less of a submissive. They are just symbols. Kneeling is a symbol, a collar, a tattoo, a brand, a piercing, they are all just symbols. They do not define my submission or my heart.
Still why it took me so long to force my brain back into that state I have no idea. Perhaps I was grieving, I do not know. So what I had to learn over again was to adapt my submission around my injuries. There are indeed a hundred ways to kneel. There are so many ways to visualize my submission.
If I cannot kneel in Nadu. Down on my knees, my back straight,, my shoulders back so my breasts are more lifted and beautiful. Thighs widely open for viewing pleasure. My weight back onto my heels as my palms rest there up in open service upon my thighs as I hold my head proudly, revealing my collar, my neck, and keeping my eyes so humble and lowered to the floor. This kills my knees, my lower back, my upper back etc.
Well instead you know what I can do? I can sit on my ass. I can bend my knees up, and keep my legs open in the same way I could in Nadu. I can keep my hands up on my knees. If my back wont allow this poisiotn then I can keep my legs open straight on the floor. Do I need back support and cannot fathom to have my hands open on my thighs? Well lets appear to be braceleted behind my back. In appearance that they are bound I can use my hands on the floor to support my weight while appearing bound.
My legs are in the walk way and taking up to much space. That is fine. I can keep them open and pull my legs in putting my feet together. This allows me to either appear bound to give my back some support or I can still put my hands on my thighs in open servitude. What if this is not possible at all? What if my body won't work that day or even allow me to not be in pain like this?
Well then what if I sit on my side a bit more. Put both of my legs to one side and look adorably attractive on my hip. I could use both of my hands to prop up my body. That is beautiful and I am still low on the ground. Perhaps laying on my belly? Or I could lay flat on my back with my legs open. It matters not that my masters can see my face. What if I cannot be on the floor today? What if that floor is to hard a surface or too cold?
Well my lovies I can get a meditation stool. I can even sit in a chair. The chair offers great support for my back. I can keep my legs open wide and my hands then on my thighs. I can even be tied to a chair with delicious rope and chains. So many good things can be done with a chair. Cannot get into a whipping position on the floor? Cannot stand today bound to a whipping post? Well my chair can do that. I can just turn around in it, press my belly flat against it and just sit there. I can kneel before it if my knees allow and lay across it for support so my ass can be used. Press the chair to the cross and I can be tied to the cross while sitting.
Truth is these positions, these things do not define me as a submissive or as a slave. They do however make it easier to perform. They allow me the chance to still serve while being safe. For example we have a bed that is mechanical. It lifts up at the feet and at the head. The head lifts so far that it can be a ninety degree angle. I was able to kneel on my bed for close to three house, my belly pressed against the mattress that was up. My hands clutching the other side for support. For hours we had a great impact scene. Floggers, canes, paddles, hands all of it. One time during I had to reposition and get a large pillow for under my knees and one for my belly and that was it. It was intense and honestly I felt dumb for not thinking of it before.
The best thing about this is that you do not have to stick to one position. You can design what positions are best for your body. You can have your dominant assist in this so they can say what is attractive. they can tell you when sitting in a chair open your legs this much. Keep your feet flat on the floor or up on your toes with your feet flat against the legs of the chair. You both can name them something unique so when the command is given you know exactly what it means. You can shopw for a chair, a meditation bench, stool, pillows, yoga mats, rugs, etc. That are JUST used for these things only.
That is what I love so much about this lifestyle. It is not cut and dry. It is noy ONE way is the right way. The beauty about positions is I can still express them even in my wheelchair when I have to use it. Cant sit at all today but I can stand for a bit. Well guess what I can express my submission with standing positions. I can design my submission around my needs. Just as you can.
So yes, there is a hundred ways to kneel and kiss the ground. You can decide for you in the moment, what your body needs. You can kiss the ground in the position that your body allows. The act of kissing the ground is what is needed. If you cannot kneel in Obeisance to kiss the ground, well then lay on your belly, on your side, put a pillow under you, use a yoga mat, wear knee pads, do it from a silken cushion, do whatever you need to do. If you cannot make it to the actual floor to kiss the gropund....
Then grab a piece of paper...write ground on it...KISS THE PAPER!!!!!
It is not the actual thing you have to kiss...it is the act. It is the intent. It is the humble loving yearning desire to serve, to be pleasing and obedient. It is the devotion that I will not give up I will find a way to do it attitude that gives me the strength to continue forward to find my submission and visualize it as best as I can. Why do I care if a girl in a picture looks absolutely beautiful kneeling on the ground. The majority of people in BDSM type images are just models anyways. Beautiful as these images are, they do not define submission.
Find your submission. Find your visualization, and remember you are not less of a submissive just because you cannot do these things. Submission is in the intention of your devotion and obedient pleasing servitude. Submission is not you just kneeling before your owner.
You are and always will be submissive even if you cannot kneel and kiss the ground. just find a way to bring the ground to you!!!