I love moments in a day where I can fall in love with my masters all over again. Usually it is just something small they do, or say, and sometimes it can just be the way the light hits their faces or a look in their eyes that takes my breath away. However tonight it was something else entirely.
My mother is getting up there in age. Not entirely old but with her health detreating She has to have two major surgeries coming up soon. One is so big that there is a good chance she might not survive. I am not sure I am even prepared for that. Still it is her decision to go through with it and thus I have to accept it.
That being said my master Calvin made me fall in love with him all over again. Due to complications my mother is having she tends to not get a lot of nutrients in her diet becuase she has issues eating. So she often feels sick, dizzy, etc. Tonight she was walking out of her bedroom and she began to get dizzy and then she fainted.
My master Calvin wasted no time when he saw this. He rushed over to her threw his body between hers and the floor. He hurt his hip in order to make sure my mother did not get injured. He caught her despite being injured from it. We have hard wood floors so I know it must have hurt to have her entire body weight land on him on the wood floor.
He held her there until she came around. He and my master Damon assessed my mother. They did all the things necessary to see if an ambulance needed to be called. They got her up slowly, checked her vitals, and once she was fully aware of what happened she was better.
Sometimes her sodium drops and so we got her situated with things needed to correct that. They helped her back to bed where she was told to remain there and if she needed assistance to just call us on the phone. So her cell phone will be with her at all times.
I have never seen Calvin react that way with my mother before. I never thought he would. Not that I ever thought him to be a bad person. It is just my mother is not the kindest of people. Still she isn't the most vile of people either. She has her issues and even though it isn't an excuse, I definitely do not want to see her hurt.
I was in a different room when this happened. No one told me what happened until it had passed. Finding out my master Calvin did this just made me fall in love with him all over again. The fact that when I thanked him for rushing there and doing that and he said, "Wouldn't Even Be A Question." just brings tears to my eyes.
My mother has never been extremely nice to him. She does not accept our relationship and is constantly bad mouthing men that I wish sometimes I could just gag her. She frustrates him so much sometimes but he never once allowed that to be a thought in his mind when he caught her. Easily he could have just let her hit the floor and the help her after.
Wouldn't Even Be A Question!
Means that no matter what he has to endure to be with me, it would never be a question from me to ask it of him. That he would never make me ask for something like this. It means that when it comes down to the nitty gritty, despite issues in our dynamic, There Wouldn't Even Be A Question if he was ever going to be unreliable. That I can trust him. That he will protect me and my family without me having to ask and beg him to.
I am safe
I am loved
I am wanted
So I love the moments out of the blue that remind me as to why I fell in love with these men in the first place. It silences all that background noise of stupid shit.
Despite our issues and everyday stresses. I have chosen two amazing men to lead me. I am proud to be their slave. I am honored that I get to live the rest of my life with them, and I am so lucky that I get to fall in love with them all over again each and every day!!!
