As I sit here and reflect on recent personal events I realize that I have as much to unlearn as I have to learn. Some of the things that I have to unlearn are recent, while others have been there for what feels like my entire life, and I will need to address each of them to reach my goals.
Some of my earliest memories were people telling me "Don't talk about your problems, nobody wants to hear them" or "quit bothering people", so now I have a hard time opening up and communicating if I have a problem or asking for help.
The need to be independent and be able to stand on one's own two feet was instilled from a young age being told "figure it out for yourself" was often heard, no one explained that it's ok to ask for help if you have tried everything and failed or if you truly need it.
The wounds and scars run deep, but I know if I want to grow both as a person and a submissive I need to deal with them. Acknowledging that need is my first step in working to my goals to become a better me.
